It's been awhile!
Masasabi ko na sa loob ng halos tatlong buwan... ang dami nang nagbago sa mundo ko... ehehehe... nakaka excite! :)

1. Hmmm....sasabihin ko na mas masaya na ko ngayon. driving force ko pa man din sa pagsusulat ang pagiging malungkot (apir Bob Ong!), e tinantanan niya ko pansamantala. i think that explains kung bakit ngayon lang ako nagparamdam... so okey!

2. Sobrang busy,, to the point na panggising ko sa umaga ang thought na kailangan kong pumasok sa trabaho at sa gabi pag-uwe,, kama ko nalang ang namimiss ko. sabi nga ng iba,, refuge daw ang pagiging busy para sa mga taong laging nag-iisip. salamat sa room mate ko sa paghila sakin palagi pabalik sa pagiging tao - thanks for sharing me your friends! =)

3. Ngayon ko na napagtanto kung paano nagiging 'heaven' ang pagkain ng masasarap, panonood ng sine, at pagpapabody spa - para sa mga taong physically pagod. sabi rin ng officemate ko, maliban sa saya at sarap na naidudulot nito, may kinalaman din ang 'purchasing power' sa satisfaction na ibinibigay nito! uhmm,, guess its right.

4. Christmas spirit is in the air... though i hate this season, tingin ko okey lang naman ako ngayon unlike in the past few years. may mga bata kasi sa bahay namin, kahit papano alam kong karapatan nilang magsaya sa mga panahong ganito at hindi ako para mandamay ng topak ko. panay ang isip ko para sa mga pangregalo, mejo nakakastress pero okey lang. tis the season to forgive and forget- sana mapatawad na ko ng mga may tampo sakin. i know its hard for me to be sincerely happy sa mga panahong to, but somehow i know i have to give myself a chance... little by little.. year by year...

5. Ang slot na ito ay para sana sa isang magandang kwento.. un nga lang, hindi ko lam kung pano simulan... kaya ilalarawan ko nalang ito sa pamamagitan ng lyrics.., dun naman ako magaling e..

if it wasn't the oceans, wasn't the breezes,
wasn't the white sands, i might be not needed.
if i could sleep through the coal mines,
if i could breathe through hatred, if i could work through the summer, then i wouldn't feel so humble.
oh you, its always you, its always you.
if red roses weren't so lovely, wine didn't taste so good,
stars weren't so romantic, then i could do what i should.
oh you, its always you, its always you.
if you love i could command it, get your head to understand it,
i'd go twice around the world, eventhough i may not find it.
oh you, its always you, its always you.

nakakamiss talaga ang mag blog... gaya ngayon,, masaya na naman ako. well,, sana magleave muna ang pagkarobot sakin... goodluck naman :) pano,, until then!

Currently Playing: Always You by Sophie Zelmani

hello! kumusta na kau??
busy-busihan ako ngayon... kakaloka!
ganun pala talaga pag seryoso na.. lol!
madami akong makukulay na kwento,, pero saka na muna un kasi limitado lang oras ko.
nami-miss ko lang talaga ang mundong ito!
haaayyy...

anyway,, gusto ko lang ishare ang song na madalas kong pinapaulit-ulit sa itunes...
ngayon ko lang siya naappreciate. nakakatuwa ang lyrics.. :)

From Transformers, Revenge of the Fallen
NEVER SAY NEVER by The Fray



There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while
You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

STILL
by: Hillsong

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Sa mga oras na ito...

Nananalangin po ako para sa mga kababayan kong apektado ng bagyong Ondoy...

Sa tito ko na napag alaman kong nasa ibabaw ng kanilang bubong at naghihintay ng paghupa ng baha...
Sa mga napapanood ko na nasa evacuation center na naghihintay ng mga tulong...
Sa mga magulang na nawawalan ng mga anak...
Sa mga anak na nawawalan ng magulang at kasama...
Sa mga tao na nadala ng rumaragasang tubig dulot ng baha...
Sa mga taong namatayan ng mga kapamilya't kaibigan...
Sa mga nawawalan ng pag-asa dahil sa trahedyang ito...
Ipinagkakatiwala ko po ang lahat sa inyo..

Gayundin ay nagpapasalamat din po ako sa inyo, Panginoon ko...

Sa kaligtsang ipinagkaloob ninyo sa akin, sa aking pamilya at sa aming bayan na hindi nasayaran ng tubig baha sa loob ng aming tahanan...
Sa mga kababayan ko na nagsisimula nang makipagbayanihan sa pamamagitan ng pagbibigay ng donasyon sa mga nasalanta at ngvvolunteer...
Sa mga kababayan na ngbibigay pag-asa sa mga kapwa Pilipino na nasa bingit na ng kahinaang loob...
Sa mensaheng gusto ninyong ipahatid sa amin sa pangyayaring ito...
Mangyari po nawa ang naaayon sa kalooban niyo...


Amen.

Bago ang lahat, gusto ko munang gawin to..


Haaaayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!


Para sa lahat-lahat ng nangyare sa loob ng mahigit isang linggo… whew!!!

Naranasan ko ulit ang maging unemployed. Pinili ko muna magpahinga sa lahat ng normal na gawain at magpaka-bum. Marami akong gustong gawin kaso hindi sapat ung isang linggo na pahinga.. gayumpaman,, masaya ako at may makabuluhan at makulay na nangyare sa buhay ko sa loob ng mga araw na yon. :)

sa sobrang saya ko, pakiramdam ko nasa ulap pa ko, hehehe! sa susunod na post nalang ako magkkwento tungkol dun...


mejo wala pa ako sa sarili ko nang nagbukas ako ng blogger account ko... sa hindi ko inaasahan, may mga surpresa palang naghihintay sa akin!

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sa totoo lang, hindi pa talaga ako ganun kasanay sa mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa blogosphere..

natutuwa lang talaga akong magbasa tungkol sa mga self expressions and sharings ng mga blogista...

at isa pa, hindi ko maipagkakaila na masarap din ang pakiramdam na ma-appreciate ng kapwa blogista ang mga sinisigaw ng isip ko na naipararating lamang sa pamamgitan ng pagsusulat dito.


masaya ako dahil ngayon lang ako nakakuha ng award! :)

kahit kailan e hindi naman ako nasanay na tumanggap ng mga awards/recognitions dahil isa lang akong simpleng tao,, masaya lang ako na may kumakausap sakin, ok na un. :)

kaya naman sobrang nagpapasalamat ako kay Czaroma ng A Woman Remembers para sa Strengthen Friendship Award na shinare niya sakin..

The award above signifies:

Green : symbolizes the new buddies
Yellow : represents the guys who are always active
Blue : symbolizes the bloggers with PR
Platform Red : symbolizes that we are all equal and that we are brothers and sisters

Here are the rules for the award:

1. Create a post as above.
2. Include the link Giver Award.
3. For colleagues who have not followed this site or not exchange links, please follow or exchange links with me.
4. Copy-paste the image above


at dahil dyan, ipinapasa ko ngayon ang award na ito sa mga bago kong kaibigan dito sa blogosphere... sana ay magpatuloy pa ang friendship at patuloy pa rin kayong maka-inspire ng ibang beginners na katulad ko.. :)

maraming salamat!!!


ipagpatuloy ang daloy ng alon... :)


Basyon
Chikletz
Reigun
Deth
Homer


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at sa iyo Basyon, salamat sa pag-follow mo sa akin...
hindi ko alam ang ang ibig sabihin ng follower, pero pinindot ko lang basta..
e aun, nakakatuwa na meron rin pumatos!
isang magandang surpresa ito para sa akin!!!
Take care of yourself and Avril! :)

Currently Playing:

Here Comes the Sun by Sheryl Crow

gumising ako kaninang umaga, nagmamadali.. dahil lagi nalang ako nalelate ngayon sa trabaho... last week ko naman na kaya hindi nako sinisita.. pagdating sa office,, timpla ng kape.. sabay nagpatawag nako ng meeting ulit para sa pagtturn over ko. busy buong maghapon... hanggang sa namataan ko kung anung petsa na ngayon...

September 9, 2009.

isang linggo nang naka-on ang alarm ko para sa araw na ito... hindi ko nalimutan pero hindi lang ako makapaniwalang ngayon na pala un... ang bilis ng panahon,, hindi ko namalayan.. ika-10 taon na pala nang kinuha ka ni Lord sa piling namin.

plano ko umattend ng Mass para sayo. at dahil kinailangang mag overtime, hindi ko na nagawa. tumawag ako kay ate,, malungkot niyang ibinalita sa akin na may sakit siya at hindi niya kayang pumunta sa bayan para makapagsimba gawa walang mag-aalaga sa mga bebi niya. pero pare pareho kaming nagdasal para sayo.

sa loob ng sampung taon, kahit masakit ang paglisan mo, hindi ko mapigilan ang pagiging proud na ikaw ang Mom ko! tuwing napag-uusapan ang mga nanay talagang hindi ako nawawalan ng kwento tungkol sayo. tuwing may nakikilala akong mga kaibigan na may nanay pa, inggit na inggit ako.

iniisip ko tuloy kung kasama pa kita,, malamang numero unong tagasupsrta ka sa mga pinagsususulat ko! siguro lagi tayong nalabas, nagwiwindow shop, nakain sa labas, at nanonood ng sine. simple lang kasi kaligayahan ng mo e,, sayo siguro talaga ako nagmana. siguro ikaw rin ang madalas kong kachikahan kapag may insomia attack ako., si ate kasi lagi nakong tinutulugan pagnagkkwento ako every weekend pag umuuwi ako.

sa awa ng diyos unti-unti na rin po akong nagiging okay sa kabila ng pagiging wasak ko ngayong taon. sayang, kung andito ka,, siguradong matutuwa ka sa progress sa buhay ko, masaya ka ngayon kasi ok na ang career ko. siguro magiging proud ka rin sakin. at alam kong ikaw din ang numero unong sasaway sa mga natutunan kong bisyo.

sayang mom, sana kasama ka namin.. alam mo, naging close na ulit pamilya natin.. alam kong gustong gusto mo un..
nga pala, makukulit na mga apo mo.. :)
si dad busy sa business niya pero masaya siyang nauwi sa bahay kasi madalas kumpleto kami.

sana nga pala nakilala mo mga kaibigan ko na humihila sakin pataas. ok sila kasama, sigurado magkakasundo kayo lalo na sa videoke sessions!

sana kung nandito ka,, lagi na kitang maittreat! anung gusto mo, palabok ng jolibi o lomi ng chowking? bibili tayo! kahit anung gusto mo... naisip ko nga minsan anu kaya kung ngayon ka nagkasakit at nangailangan,, may pambili na tayo ng mga tamang gamot para sayo,, mas maaalagaan ka namin kasi kaya na namin ngayon.

hayyy,, ayoko nang maluha.. lalaki lalo ang eyebags ko. alam ko namang mas ok kana ngayon. pasensya kana kung lagi kitang naddisappoint. malabo man sabihin na iniaalay ko sayo ang bawat ginagawa ko, pero hindi ko maiwasan ang magkamali. kulang talaga siguro sa guidance. pero tama ka, may tamang timing talaga si God sa lahat ng bagay! gaya ngayon... :)

i love you Mommy! we miss you so much!

currently playing:
TIME IN A BOTTLE by Jim Croce
If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that Id like to do
Is to save every day
Till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you
If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
Id save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
Ive looked around enough to know
That youre the one I want to go
Through time with
If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find themIve looked around enough to know
That youre the one I want to go
Through time with

special thanks to reigun.. eto na, nagawa ko na ung post para sa mom ko! tnx! :)

August 21, my girlfriends and I had our night out (by the way, they are Cel, Carla, Khate and Anne, my high school close friends). It was Cel and Khate’s post birthday celeb so we decided to go somewhere we can eat and celebrate, see a movie and drink coffee after to catch up. SM Sta. Rosa was a fair place for that event.


As we enter Pizza Hut we saw familiar faces. It was Lana and Jomar, high school classmates of ours. It was weird to see them out dining alone though I heard some news back then that they really got close during college since they both studied in Manila. They said they are just friends and they have their own love lives – okay! As I said, it’s just weird.


Truthfully, Jomar was my first love. Nobody in my girlfriends knew about that, only two of my friends back in high school but I have not been with them for a long time now.

He has changed. He got fat, haha! He was cuter back in high school. I remember his sweet eyes and warm smile. Our comfortable conversations about how we hated the world and love music. We exchanged cassette tapes and CDs of Eraserheads albums, Rivermaya, PNE, Survivor, Cruisin love song selections, Scorpions and a lot more. I still have Phil Collins’ best hits album that he gave me, though it doesn’t play anymore. I remember, I lend him some song hits with chords of Eheads songs and the 1001 Book, we also shared some tips in playing guitar. I still have the drawing he gave me of Ghostfighter character, Dennis, the one with the rose. He was very good on it and I loved it. It was with him that I started to appreciate and understand every song’s lyrics from the song “Halaga”. I remember how he brighten up my day everyday in our high school years that I wonder how I managed to hide it from him and from our classmates. I’ll never forget the day he held my hand one afternoon before school departure. I still have the card he gave me before we graduate. Lastly, I still remember how I felt when he told me that he was falling for our classmate Chat, a beautiful musician.


He sat beside me. Since we never had the chance to communicate after our graduation day, we were able to talk about it that night. We shared some laugh and brief stories. I learned about his career and failed relationship as I told him mine. We talked about how he thought he was about to be married, then how he struggled to overcome a bad break up and what the pain had made him.

It’s good to know that I don’t feel the same, I mean I don’t get hurt anymore unlike before. Duh! It’s been like.. uhm.. 8… 9 years, I even don’t remember the sound of his voice! We don’t know what happened to us, we never dared to talk it out. My sister said I’ve been fooled. Well, I guess we all have our fair share of being foolish when in comes to love. I’m glad that everything was just so cool and it’s good to be hearing from him after all these years! I just wonder if he had anything to do with my love life that just quite made a little pattern that started from what happened in us. ;) Well, I just wish him – well!

I still remember a lot of things we’ve shared. I guess, that’s just the way I love, that’s the way I am. I don’t know if he still remember some of the things I’ve mentioned but if ever we’d be able to talk about this... I know we’ll be laughing so damn hard!

Currently Playing: Dear Paul by Barbie’s Cradle
Now by MYMP

nakapanood ako ng Grey's Anatomy Season 4 kahapon pagkatapos ng 50 years na pagmmovie marathon. napansin ko tong linyang ito na narelate ako... nainis si Christina sa babagal-bagal at walang kusang intern na si Lexie (lol)

Lexie: Are you okay?
Christina: Don't ask me if I'm okay.
Lexie: Okay.
Christina: Ugh, you make me sick. Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own. - Losing My Mind


last friday.. medyo naasar ako sa officemate ko... ayaw niya tanggapin ang ilang trabaho na iiwanan ko... as i can see, kayang-kaya niya un at hindi ko naman irerecomend na ibigay sa kanya ung trabaho kung alam kong hindi niya kaya... its for her own advantage. pero tinanggihan niya ko.. medyo nanghihinayang ako kasi nakakahon nalang siya sa trabaho niya ngayon... simpleng simple nalang sa kanya lahat... at naiirita ako knowing na binibigay ko sa kanya ang work load na kung saan may chance siyang mag-grow..lalo pa ngayon na aalis na ko..

nakakahinayang at nakakairita... siguro dahil rin talaga sa rejection... pero yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...

baka mabasa mo to,..pasensiya na walang personalan ha, trabaho lang...
you're still my dear friend...
two weeks to go...
im going to miss you...

may hindi inaasahang nangyare kaninang hapon... naloka ako! kumusta naman ang natanga sa microwave...
may dala akong popcorn na kelangang isalang sa microwave para ma-enjoy... nagpasama ako sa officemate ko na si may na bumaba sabay tsikahan naren tungkol sa status ng resignation ko (coffee break na walang kape.. hehe). hindi ko naman first time gumamit ng microwacve oven... first time kolang magluto ng popcorn don. puro kain lang kasi ang ginagawa ko. :)
ang sabi sa instructions, 2 minutes daw ang pagluluto non, at most, 2 minutes and 30 sec. dahan dahan kong nilagay ang popcorn sa loob ng oven at pinindot ng dalawang beses ang 1 minute button. ang saya! habang pumuputok-putok at nangangamoy na ang popcorn, tuloy ang kwentuhan namin ni may... maya maya pa, tumunog na ang "ding" senyales na tapos na ang 2 minutes. naririnig ko pa na may pumuputok pa kaya naisip ko na pindutin pa ang 30 mins. button.

langhap..
langhap...
wow.....
ding!

binuksan ko nang buong tuwa ang oven... nagulat ako sa usok sa loob nito...

waaahhh!!!!!!!!
hindi pwede!!!!!!

nasunog ang kinatatakaman kong popcorn! mainit pa nang ito'y binuksan ko... lumabas ang mas makapal pang usok... at imbis na dilaw e itim na ang mga popcorn... sa sobrang sama ng loob ke itinapon ko nalang ito...

natatarantang nagbabaan isa-isa nag mga officemates ko...
"nasaan na ung popcorn??", " anung nangyare, bakit nasunog??"

at ang pinakamasakit na tanong... "hindi ka ba marunong gumamit ng microwave??"

nagflash back tuloy ung experience ko dati few years ago, nakasunog din ako sa microwave kasama ung kaibigan ko.. dahil sa gusto namin ng madaliang midnight snack.. pinilit namin lutuin ung frozen na hotdog sa microwave... kinalabasan... isang kaawa awang tuyot na hotdog. natawa nalang ako nung naalala ko un...


buti nalang hindi nagalit ang boss ko sa nangyare... haaayyy.... dumikit ang amoy ng sunog na popcorn sa damit ko na hanggang ngayon e naamoy ko pa... sa sama ng loob ko, napabili nalang ako ng nilagang mais para miryenda.


P.S. ~ ginugle ko lang po ang picture na yan... parang ganyan kasi ung kinalabasan ng popcorn :(
pinalitan ko na nga pala ung backround song ko,, laging may natatakot kasi sa intro ng enveloped ideas ng The Dawn e... :)

Currently Playing: I Want Something That I Want by Bethany Joy Galleoti

I’m trying to make a draft of my resignation letter. But I can’t type even a single word except, Dear Sir. Just last week, my friends happily informed me that they want me to join their team in their newly established advertising agency. My heart jumped in excitement as they explained to me how promising the company is. After a few days of thinking it through, I have finally decided and said ‘yes’ to their offer.


But right now,, my dilemma is whether to go or to stay. November 2004 since my current employer hired me to be their general accountant. I have learned a lot and gained a lot of friends. Working in an advertising industry is such a lot of fun. But I can tell that it’s very very frustrating for me. Frustrating because here is where I realized that I shouldn’t took Management Accounting as a college course. Maybe I should have taken Fine Arts major in Advertising, Creative Writing, Marketing and the like. Though I enjoyed my stay in this company and considered my officemates now as my own family, I can’t help longing to break free. I feel like a victim by our employer. As an accountant, I can see the flow of his financials and I realized that we, his employees are not included in his priorities. Unadjusted salaries, sometimes delayed, poor benefits, unremitted tax and other governmental benefits, and a bunch of – I can consider – rotten system practices of most Filipino employers who thinks that you’re lucky that he give you a job. Even the complimentary magazines that we used to receive every month from various publications, he blocked it. I know I should be thankful for having a job unlike a million other Filipinos struggling to have one. But I can’t help but wish to have a better employer. An employer who reminds you of your worth in their company and then if you’re lucky, you’ll receive incentives.
I have a lot of reasons to leave but same as to stay. I’ll miss the coziness in the office with my beloved officemates, who already know whenever I’m okay or not. The endless stories and laughter while we work, the cool sounds, the food trips during overtime, gimiks, fun photoshoots, the team effort that transformed us into responsible individuals, all of this and a lot more in almost 5 years, the reasons that dragging me to stay.
I’m contemplating in writing a letter… I don’t know how to start but I want it to be just simple and concise. As my Ate said, “formality lang naman yan eh!” And as to what I feel right now, I am grateful… for the years of tears and laughter, for everything that I experienced and learned, for the trials that made me hope, for not letting my hopes die and for facing a new phase in my life!

Currently Playing:

“Sleepless nights when your memory consumed me But they all have been long gone… I’m so much more than what you cared to see. You drove me away Now I can move forward. Move forward…” – Anthem by Urbandub

“Parked car this night sky, makes city lights shine like diamonds.. our song plays on the radio…” – First of Summer by Urbandub (theme song namin to habang nakatambay sa may kanto!)

Eto ang naging reaction ko nang nagreply ang dad ko sa akin…

Ganto kasi yon…


Kahapon,, nagpaload ako sa globe sim ko after 45 years.. palibhasa batang araw na rin ako ngayon :)

so aun, naisip kong itext ang dad ko… hanap..hanap… hanggang sa nakakita ako ng maayos na mensahe na nagpapakita ng konting ‘care’. Hindi naman kasi ako ganun kaclose sa dad ko,, hindi rin naman normal sa min ang pagiging cheesy.. ewan ko ba, absent kami malamang ng magpasabog si lord ng sweetness sa mga tao.. tsk tsk..

“Laughter drains all stress for the whole day. May you always be happy, and have that big smile on your face as having the Lord in your heart always! Ingat lagi! :)

Simple lang di ba?!
Sa hindi ko inaasahan, nagreply ang dad ko na kahapon e nasa Cavite, sa business site niya…

“wen u txt me with dat kind of phrase it inspires me to work more n more..it gives me a little sigh n comfort…just continue ur good work and who knows.. u mayb d nxt Gloria hopefully.”

Aawww… kala ku nung una quote din, hehe! Akalain mo, napasok sa isipan ng tatay ko na maging Gloria ako someday??! Ehe. Sabay relpy ko ng “ay ayoko po ng gloria, kung cory – winner un!”

Un na, nateary-eyed na ko.. iba kasi talaga pag galing sa magulang ang mensahe.. bawat salita may tama. Na kahit may kulang, may napupunan na rin unti-unti..
Kung meron man sa inyo na medyo katulad ko na nagstuggle sa mga awkward moments sa mga parents.. try niyo lang subukan sa text ipakita ang care… habang may panahon pa tayo bumawi sa kanila sa lahat ng pagod para mairaos ang pagpapalaki sa atin. Minsan care o malasakit na lang talaga ang maisusukli natin.. ang malaman nila na mahal natin sila at sobrang pinagpapahalagahan natin ang mga ginawa nila para satin. Hanggat buhay pa sila at pwede pa tayong marinig at makita.. hindi rin sila perpekto gaya natin pero may mga bagay na kailangan nating maintindihan sa kanila maliban sa pagnanais natin na maintindihan nila tayo.


In my case… I still need improvement, more practice pa kumbaga. Pero sabi nga ng kaibigan ko na si Anne, ung intention lang na gusto mo rin mag reach out - your half the battle na!

Nakakapagod din ang trabaho ko pero carry! You made my day dad! Tc! :)

Currently Playing: You've got to hide your love away by The Beatles

wish ko talaga may muwang na ako during Cory's Presidency.


"Ako’y nagpapasalamat sa inyong lahat at lalong-lalo na sa Panginoong Diyos, na ginawa niya akong isang Pilipino. Talagang karangalan ko iyon, na maging katulad niyo at maraming salamat sa lahat ng tulong na ibinigay niyo sa akin." – Corazon C. Aquino (1933 – 2009)




andaming mga nagbigay na magagandang eulogy for the late former president, Mrs. Cory Aquino. i heard a lot,, a read a lot... actually, i have nothing to comment at all, theres no way to disagree. lahat ng sinabi nila tama!

but what striked me most was Kris Aquino's eulogy...

coz i was once a mourner for a lost mother..

lalong bumaha ng luha sa bahay namin nang narinig namin ni ate ang mga linyang ito...



“I’m sorry mom, I lied to you. Nagsinungaling ako when I told you na we would be okay. I did this because we wanted you to be free from all your pain at para hindi ka na mag-alala tungkol sa amin. Pero, mom, it would take a lifetime for us to be okay because we will forever miss you,”



cant help but cry.. i felt every word that she said... god, i miss my mom...



totoo ung mga sinabi niya...



"how do I find the words to say goodbye? paano ba magpaalam kapag alam mo, alam ng puso mo na hindi pa rin sapat ang panahon na ibinahagi sayo ng Diyos sa piling ng iyong pinakamamahal..."



i was 16 when i lost my mom.. its been almost 10 years since that unforgivable cancer take her away from us... and it still hurts... a lot of what might have been's endlessly running through my head... i have nothing to say anymore... i might breakdown now...



i admire Kris for this heartfelt eulogy.. to be able to tell the world how much she loves her mom and proud being her daughter.

Currently Playing: Handog ng Pilipino sa Mundo

Sa huling pagkakataon, inihayag ni Mrs. Arroyo ang kanyang State of the Nation Address. Haayyy, sana huli na nga talaga..
Nakakatawa kasi maghapon akong nakikinig sa DZMM para sa mga latest updates nang ibalita nila na may isinulat sa editorial ng Washington Times na talaga namang nakakadurog sa imahe ni arroyo… isang MISTAKE raw ang pagme-meet nila ni Obama.. eto ung isang part ng article…

“The Washington Times said Obama would become a "sanitizer" for Mrs. Arroyo’s troubled presidency plagued by allegations of corruption, human rights abuses, and moves to prolong her tenure.

"The choice of Mrs. Arroyo for this honor was a mistake because Mr. Obama is being used to give political cover for the Philippine president's troubles back home," read the editorial titled Obama the Sanitizer.”

Wasak! Sabay sagot ng Press Secretary Cerge Remonde na irresponsible journalism raw at biased ang writer. Lol!

Bale ang SONA ay sinimulan ng isang panalangin para kay Cory Aquino. Salamat sa demokrasya!

Ang ilan sa mga nilaman ng SONA (o masasabi kong bato niya sa mga kritiko niya):

• Ang State of the Nation natin ay isang Strong Economy (kung un ang gusto niyang paniwalaan..ok.)

• Hindi raw siya naging president para maging popular. - Okay pa ren, sige!

• “For standing with me and doing the right thing – thank you congress.”

• For the last months of her tenure, expect not politics. Sorry but its all work. Talaga lang e parang nagsisimula ka nang mangandidato niyan!

• Time to shine! Infrastructure, Telecommunications, Employments, CARP Program, Pabahay, Loan Condonation, Hunger Mitigation Program, Low Cost generics, Average Inflation, Education… Dapat lang po!

• “There is nothing more than I can wish for but peace in Mindanao.” - gogogo!
• "Equal opportunity for a maningful job to all" - gogogo ren!

Matapang ang paglalahad niya ng SONA. Pero hindi ko makuhang humanga sa kanya. Sabi ni Gov. Salceda, we need to see the big picture in her presidency. Kahit marami siyang magagandang mga adhikain, at kahit na tayo ay nasa panahon na tinatawag na “culture of distrust’, pero dahil sa hindi pa matapos-tapos na mga kaso niya sa corruption like ZTE at Fertilizer scam, I cant get myself to see the big picture.

Hindi daw siya diktador kundi isang determinadong pangulo. – talaga?! Hindi niya binuklat ang tungkol sa umalingasaw na ConAss. Kahit ang mga kasong kinasasadlakan niya at ng kanyang asawa, pinili niya rin na hindi magkomento. Sa pagkawala at pagkamatay ng maraming mga demonstrador at journalist, wala rin ba siyang kinalaman? Kumusta naman ang diktadurya sa kamay niya? Saang aspeto tayo dapat maging determinado sa pagsulong gayong napakarami ang nagrarally at humuhingi ng katotohanan… Anu na nga ba ang estado ng bansa tungkol sa mga puntong yan.

Wala siyang nabanggit.

Sa halip ay nambato nalang siya sa mga kritiko niya.

“If want to do something, do it. Do it well… and don’t say bad words in public!” (for Mar Roxas)

Iginigiit nya ang charter change.. open naman ako sa idea na yan dahil talga namang marami kelangan amyendahin sa saligang batas.. basta hindi lang ako pabor na siya pa ren ang may kapangyarihan na magmanipula dito.. "I will step down from this stage but not from the presidency… term will end next year… I never expressed desire to extend my term". Kahit na sinabi na niya ang mga katagang ito, ngunit hindi niya nilinaw kung may balak pa siyang kumandidato.. tangnaloob, tama na!

Currently Playing: Trapo by Yano

my favorite music video for the moment! woohoo!
im so in-love with up dharma down!!
hope you enjoy it as i do! ^_^

Kagabi, di matapos-tapos ang

Nobelang binubuo sa mumunting isipan ko

Kakitiran, namimilit pang mangatuwiran

Iniipon ang mga pagkakataonsa isang sulok at pinagdurugtong-dugtong

dugtong(dugtong)

kapit(kapit)

kabig(kabig)

mali(mali)

Huli na ang lahat

Para bawiin ang hindi nararapat

Ano ba? umaayos ka

Wala nang magagawa sa nahulog na

At tayong dalawa, at tayong dalawa'y

urong(urong)

Sulong(sulong)

Urong-sulong nalang ba?

sakit(sakit)

bakit(bakit)

Bakit ako na lamang ang natitira?

Kasalanan mong lahat nang 'to

Bakit ako pinagbabayad mo?

Kasalanan mong lahat ng 'to, oh

Nagtataka ako

Bakit siya ang pinili mo?

Kagabi, sa kasarapan ng aking pagbabasa, nakaramdam ako ng pagdyingle. Dahil don, dali-dali kong itinaob ang libro kong binabasa at nagmamadaling pumunta sa banyo. Pinindot ko ang switch ng ilaw at dali-daling naupo. Nagtaka ako ng napansin ko na walang ilaw na nagbukas – pundido na siguro ang bombilya. Maya-maya pa ay naamoy ko ang halimuyak ng albatross. Ganung ganon. Bago ito kaya malakas pa ang amoy. Maya-maya pa, may biglang nagflash-back sa aking isipan sa gitna ng dilim. Lagi ring pundido ang ilaw ng cr namin sa dating bahay namin sa Panorama. Dahil sa walang nag-aasikaso non sa bahay, pare-pareho nalang rin kami nasanay na walang ilaw ron. Pero kapag kailangang-kailangan talaga, binubuksan namin ang ilaw sa likod-bahay na siyang kalikuran lang ng cr – para sa konting liwanag na maihahagip nito. Pagpasok dito ay maamoy na kaagad ang albatross na noon ay nakasabit sa tubo na di kalayuan sa gripo. Hindi nawawalan sa min ng albatros kasi kinasanayan na un kahit pa noong buhay pa si Mommy. As usual, kahit sa ganoong bagay ay nagiging nostalgic na agad ako. Sa ilang minuto ay may mga piling ala-ala ang napadaan sa isip ko. Tulad ng mga oras na nagmamadali kami tuwing umaga sa paggamit ng cr dahil may makulit na nakatok sa pinto na sususnod na magbabanyo. Ung kapatid ko, naririnig ko pa… “aba, ate, nilamon ka na yata ng kubeta dyan???!!” Dun din ako nagpupunta kapag ayokong marinig ang nakakarinding sermon noon ni Mommy =) Ilan lang yon sa napakarami. Maya-maya pa ay sa unahan ko na kinakapa ang pintuan,, natawa ako sa sarili nang napagtanto ko na nasa kanan bahagi na pala ang pinto sa banyo namin sa bahay ngayon. Magdadalawang taon na rin ang nagdaan mula nang umalis kami sa bahay kung saan kami lahat lumaki. Magdadalawang taon na pero sauladong saulado ko pa rin (o masasabi kong namin) ang bawat detalye ng bahay na yon,, na kung papipiliin ako, dun ko pa rin gugustuhing tumira hanggang sa pagtanda – sa tahanan ng aming napakasaya at walang kamatayang kabataan.

Currently Playing: Tama ka by Eraserheads

“Kay sarap sariwain ang malayang kahapon… ang hirap isiping ang layo ng noon…”

maya-maya napunta ang topic namin sa tungkol sa mga spiritual na bagay...




"Bakit ganun,, binigyan pa tayo ng freewill ni god kung pagtapos ng lahat lahat -- siya rin naman ang masusunod?? "



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kahapon.. habang nasa gitna ako ng traffic sa SLEX.. may nagpadala sa akin ng text message..
swak na swak sa naging topic namin...

well, sana mabasa niya to...











nice isn't it?
para sa mga taong may ganito ring tanong... this is a perfect answer.. :)

Ansaya! I was able to watch again The Dawn’s independently released film – Tulad ng Dati. The film won BEST PICTURE, BEST EDITING and BEST SOUND in the 2006 Cinemalaya Festival in the Philippines. Grabe, astig talaga! Kapanahunan ko to! Its about the life story of The Dawn and Jett Pangan’s as well. How he struggled about Teddy Diaz’s death, who happened to be his band mate and confidante. He became arrogant along the way and he forgot the importance of other band mates and friends who, in spite of all, remained in the group. Ibang klase pakiramdam! Id like to ask every Filipino to watch it. It is a part of Philippine history. I dont know what else to say about it. I almost cried. Just watch it. I enjoyed so much the story especially the conversation of Jett and Teddy there..some goes like this…

Teddy diaz: Think about this Jett,, pag may nawala sa isang tao, anong ginagawa?

Jett Pangan: Hinahanap.

Teddy: What if di mahanap?

Jett: Pinapalitan.

Teddy: What if hindi mapalitan?

Jett: Kinakalimutan.

Teddy: Last question, ano ang gagawin if yung nawala, ay hindi mahanap, hindi mapalitan, at hindi makalimutan?

Jett: Tinatanggap.

Yeah, acceptance.. it strike me in a way. There will come a point in our life where we’ll have to accept the version of truths of us as it unfolds in our very faces. By doing so, we’ll be able to discover a part of us, the part that you never thought existed. It’s hard but it’s liberating.

The show really made my night. Buti nalang umuwi ako ng maaga! Cool din ung utol ko kasi magkasama kami nanood. We both shared our comments about the conversations and flow of the film.

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“…kung may bagyo o kung tag-araw sa iyong damdamin… sana ay makilala kang muli tulad ng dati…” - I sympathizes with you Kapatid! =)

“…basta’s kasama mo ako, iisang bangka tayo… anuman ang mithiin ay makakamtam natin…” – as always,, I’ll stay.

isa akong batang friendster...
mga 6-7 na taon narin akong myembro nun...
kung papipiliin ako, mas gusto ko ang fs kesa sa fb...
pakiramdam ko kasi mas lumalabas ang personalidad ko sa fs..
tapos, nadiskubre ko ang pagbblog...
nasiyahan ako...

pero minsan may darating na mga pangyayari na kelangan mong magbago ng lugar na ginagalawan... kaiba sa nakasanayan... magsimula ng panibago...
hindi ko maipaliwanag ang mga dahilan,, pero isa lang ang sigurado ako,, kailangan ko na ito!

salamat sa kaibigan kong nag-introduce sakin nitong blogger.. astig!

sa bagong blog na ito, nagpost pa rin ako ng mga inaamag ko nang mga blog sa friendster,, pumili lang ako ng maganda baunin mula sa masayang nakalipas...

promise,, hindi masyado malungkot ang mga lalamanin nito... ehe.. :)

isang mapagpalayang araw ng pagbabasa at paglalahad sa lahat!!! *_*

Currently PLaying: Naroon by Yano

Tada! My silver year is about to be over! My 25 years of existence in this world had been such a roller coaster ride. Twists and turns, ups and downs… whew! Though I’m trying so hard to enjoy the beauty of the surrounding landscapes, I can’t help but feel the fear… it feels like my heart, intestines and other insides will come out of my mouth. Nevertheless,, I managed to hold on.
I cant believe it! Its been 25 years of my brilliant existence… a quarter of a century. To sum it all, I am nothing but grateful.

1.Mom!Wherever you are right now, I’m thankful for you. Thanks for bringing me up, for letting me experience a beautiful childhood. For every simple trials that you helped me how to deal with. I want you to know that I still feel your love and guidance every now and then. I love you!

2.Dad! Thanks for giving me a good life. Thank you for not giving me up especially in times of distress. Thanks for standing up for us as a mom and dad for us! I love you!

3.Ate! Thanks for your influence in music and fashion that I learned to appreciate as I grow up. Thanks for sharing your point of views, thanks for being my very best friend!

4.JR! Thanks also for the music we shared. Thanks for being you! I’m enabling to know more about myself as I get to know you more. Thanks for reminding me every now and then that I’m not alone as I go through this life. I love you.

5.Night Till Morning Club/LEO Club! Mga kababata ko sa Panorama Ville! Thanks for opening my eyes about the world! I guess that explains it all! Haha! Seriously, thanks for the acceptance. Thanks also for opening my mind about my social responsibilities that made me realize that I can do something to help. Wherever you are right now my friends, Mary Jhoy, Jonathan, Mark, Jay, Kuya Glenn, Emon, Dimple and all… I miss you all! I love you!

6.Singles for Christ! That’s for bringing me back to the heart of worship! Thanks for saving my lost soul. Thanks for the guidance that you gave me in my time of crisis as i grow up. Thanks not letting me go… unitl now. Thanks Sis. Ner, Sis. Joy, Sis. Anne, Bro. Kosep, Bro. JR, Con, Franz, Kuya Harold, Henry, Tio Greg and Tita Beth, and to all West 2 andWest 3 SFC Community. You’re the best! Bro. JR, thanks ha, until now you’re still there pulling me up. Sabi nga, kung gusto mo ng mga totoong kaibigan mag-SFC ka! Astig! I love you all!

7.Kanlungan Family! Thanks for the inspiration. Thanks for reminding me that I can achieve something or I can go anywhere because you guys are always there to support! Thanks for the burning spirit of friendship! I need not to say much,,, you already know what I mean! I love you all!

8.Sis. Anne! Thanks for the wisdom you’ve imparted on me, until now it’s still with me. Your words are engraved in my heart. You’ve done a good job in my transformation. Thank God, He let me know you. I’ll never forget you as long as I live. I love you.

9.Millimeter Clan! Thanks – I was able to gain confidence as I learned my value through you as I shared my knowledge with you. Thanks for all my co-employees who became my very good friends. To Toni, Carlo, May, Jason, Kuya Abe… to everyone… I love you all!

10.Cheska, Pia, Macky, and Gerard. MY pamangkins! I don’t have my own family yet but through their eyes and smiles made me believe that there’s a beautiful future waits for me as I wait for what God had planned for me. They let me realize a deeper sense of responsibility. To make myself a better me in order for them to be molded as one.

Thank God for this gift of Life. Thanks thanks! I won’t be able to feel this happiness if its not with Your Presence! Thanks for not giving me up. Thanks for saving me every now and then! Cheers!

June 5, Friday - the news came to me that our high school teacher - Ms. Fely Baterina, passed away. she died after being confined in the ICU for almost 2 years. saturday night I went to the wake with my HS friends. its just so funny that almost everyone in there were Ms. Fely’s former students.. funny coz they have the same statements in remembering her… “grabe, malupit siya manabunot sa patilya!” e lahat yata naranasan un e! I cant deny,, she’s one of the reasons why i had a not so good highschool memories. the fear, humiliation, strictness, favoritism (definitely not me! i learned then the meaning of the word “unfair”),, made me wish the high school is over. and it was so over, thank God!

Ms. Fely and I weren’t really close like in “Tuesdays with Morrie” scene. but i believe somehow i owe her a part of who i am as i grew up. it was through her that i learned to comprehend well the language of English. it was through her that i appreciated to read books (coz we need it for our book reports). it was through her that i conquered my fear in public speaking (takot ko nalang talaga!). and above all, i want to thank her for talking to my mom during the times when she was battling with cancer. she hugger her, cry with her, gave her advice, and maybe somehow told her “she understands”, and “keep the faith”. i maybe too young back then but i know my mom appreciated it so much. hope they remember one another when they meet in heaven and somehow give each other a smile.

I dont know Ms. Fely that much,, not much as i heard in the gossips there and there - i just know she’d been a teacher to many successful individuals in Cabuyao and the nearby towns. surprisingly, me and my HS friends doesnt feel the bitterness in the memories in her hands anymore. we are now smiling and laughing as we remember each youthful memories.
Thank you Ms. Fely Baterina, we’ll never forget you and forever be grateful for your part in our being. Happy journey!

Currently Playing: I Will Remember You by Sarah Mclachlan

UTTERLY PROFOUND, YOUNGBLOOD article, Feb. 3, 2009

“HELLO,” I SAID SLUGGISHLY. MY BODY WAS SHAKING while I held the phone. It must have been the dreadful, chilly winds brought about by the harsh winter season.
“Hey, my dear! Did I wake ya?” was the quick energized response.
“yeah, ya did. What time is it? Where are ya?”
“I’m sorry. It’s a lil’ past three. I’m at a lil’ coffee shop down in Sunset.”
I didn’t even bother to ask him what he was doing in Hollywood hours before the crack of dawn. He should have been in bed, like other normal people.
While he mumbled for some time, I contemplated that my voice mail should have picked up his call. But the phone rang more than thrice. I thought it was a long distance call from back home and there was an emergency. The Philippines and Los Angeles had a 16-hour time difference, that’s why.
At any rate, I was awake.
Then he finally told me that I should closely listen to the story he was about to tell. He said it happened one afternoon after he go out of work and strolled around a park in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. Wanting to relax, he sat down in one of the benches. Minutes later, he saw an old woman on a wheelchair and a baby on a stroller crossing diagonally right in front of him at the exact same moment.
“When life ends, life begins,” he said in a very soft voice.
For a brief moment, I was silent and my body trembled even more.
Even after our conversation ended, I was still in shock. A simple story, yet utterly profound. I couldn’t get back to sleep and ended up staring at the wall for hours and hours until I finally mustered enough strength to get out of bed and get ready for work.
In a sense, he had conveyed the power of moving forward and starting anew even when everything seemed to have fallen apart.
To top it all, it was just days after he gave me the most exquisite and precious Christmas present I have received so far: a small crystal figurine of a unicorn affixed in a mirrored glass. His words:

“The symbolism of the unicorn I picked out for you is of purity and innocence, kind of virginal, so to speak. The reason I got it for you is simple: I care about you. I wanted you to have something more genuine than a sweater, a dress, or some tacky present. But also so you would know that we might not be together forever, but I wanted to share with you the meaning behind the unicorn. Some day, when you’re having a hard time, look at the unicorn and understand that everything will be okay. I know it doesn’t seem that way when you’re worrying about something or you are in a middle of a crisis, but unicorns do exist. God made them too. They bring hope along with a good prayer.”

To my amazement, he manifested immense spirituality. Although he never really pressed any specific religious teaching, he always managed to stir my soul.
Astonishingly, he has the gift of discernment. He has the ability to comprehend beyond the five senses. For instance, he foretold the quick recovery of a young lady who was run over by a car and was bound to a wheelchair after doctors insisted that she could never walk again. He also knew that I went to the beauty salon for a haircut although we had not seen each other for months.
Unbelievable as it may sound, he can quickly recognize the presence of a good spirit or an evil omen.
At one point or another, he played different roles in my life. He was a friend (and he still is). He was a lover. He was a teacher. He was the closest thing I ever had to a soul mate.
He made me realize the beauty in life in a world filled with chaos, injustice and selfishness. More significantly, he taught me something even greater: to have faith again, to believe again.
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Tara Yap, 27, works for a newspaper in Iloilo City and is also a research assistant for project-based researches in UP Visayas

Imagine, todo! I attended three major concerts last year! Last August, together with Loricel, my highschool friend, we watched Alicia Keys Live at SMX Convention MOA. Singing my favorite hits, gosh! I almost cried! Especially, If I Ain’t Got You and No One! Oh my! Cel treated me snacks as her birthday blow out, then we had coffee after! Truly, the concert is unforgettable!

In the same month (8.30.08), I and my siblings watched Eraserheads The Reunion at Global City Taguig! All the childhood memories relived! “Kapanahunan namin to!” No words can explain how overwhelmed we were. I cried during the opening countdown and they played Alapaap! Everybody’s singing and shouting! I still love them,, walang makakatalo.pramis! nakaka-high, astig!!! Even if they weren’t able to finished the show (because Ely had heart attack), still, the concert was remarkable! Im proud, I was part of it! It’s a history!

Come November, together with my officemates and my brother, we watched Rihanna and Chris Brown Concert! I’m not really a fan with anyone of them,, but then, I can say that their performance were superb! We sang and danced to their music! We had a great party night! Woohoo!

What will be the next kaya? Well, hope marami pa sumunod! It’s a great feeling how we lose control in the concert area. Ka-high talaga! Hmmm… I’ll look forward for more this year! Weee!!!!