You’re gonna make it, Madj!
I need to say it to myself. To whom but myself shall I get comfort.. as I need it more often. As a new friend told me, that the problem with being strong is – nobody bothers to ask if you’re hurt. They are confident that you can handle everything. Well, I guess I’ll take that as a compliment. But there are times that I don’t want that., but we cannot impose to anyone what we want them to do for us. I respect that. I know that’s part of what you called – unconditional love.
On the contrary, I love to do good things to others. To be a good friend to them,
sincerely. But then there are people who don’t like that. Lately, I encountered a situation where a friend didn’t want to be “touched”. Maybe I was being OA or maybe I really crossed the line.. but that moment – I was hurt. And for a while I allowed myself to be insensitive. After few weeks of soul searching, I realized that I shouldn’t continue such, for the simple reason that – its not me. Nevertheless, the experience taught me to respect others’ decision. No matter how long good years you’ve been together… sometimes you need to give space and time.. to let go.. hoping that the connecting thread in us still remains.. knowing that we can still count on each other.
However, I still must open myself to other friends who need me.. who’s willing to stick in the friendship as we sail through this life. although people always leave… and that hurts too. But life goes on, that’s why. Every now and then, we need to learn how to deal with it. I remembered a conversation I had with a friend years ago.. cant remember the exact words that I told him.. its like this.. “kahit umalis/mapagod na ang iba (sa pagkakaibigan namin).. mananatili pa rin ako.. para kapag maisip nila na lumingon/bumalik.. malalaman nila na may naghihintay sa kanila.. may babalikan sila.” And I intended to stick to that promise, though I’m not perfect but I’ll stick to it no matter what happens.
Currently Playing: Cinderella (OST PBB Season 1)
I’ll be There for You by Rembrandts
