have some fire!
gesmunds
nakapanood ako ng Grey's Anatomy Season 4 kahapon pagkatapos ng 50 years na pagmmovie marathon. napansin ko tong linyang ito na narelate ako... nainis si Christina sa babagal-bagal at walang kusang intern na si Lexie (lol)

Lexie: Are you okay?
Christina: Don't ask me if I'm okay.
Lexie: Okay.
Christina: Ugh, you make me sick. Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own. - Losing My Mind
last friday.. medyo naasar ako sa officemate ko... ayaw niya tanggapin ang ilang trabaho na iiwanan ko... as i can see, kayang-kaya niya un at hindi ko naman irerecomend na ibigay sa kanya ung trabaho kung alam kong hindi niya kaya... its for her own advantage. pero tinanggihan niya ko.. medyo nanghihinayang ako kasi nakakahon nalang siya sa trabaho niya ngayon... simpleng simple nalang sa kanya lahat... at naiirita ako knowing na binibigay ko sa kanya ang work load na kung saan may chance siyang mag-grow..lalo pa ngayon na aalis na ko..

nakakahinayang at nakakairita... siguro dahil rin talaga sa rejection... pero yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...

baka mabasa mo to,..pasensiya na walang personalan ha, trabaho lang...
you're still my dear friend...
two weeks to go...
im going to miss you...
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ang malungkot na miryenda, bow...
gesmunds
may hindi inaasahang nangyare kaninang hapon... naloka ako! kumusta naman ang natanga sa microwave...
may dala akong popcorn na kelangang isalang sa microwave para ma-enjoy... nagpasama ako sa officemate ko na si may na bumaba sabay tsikahan naren tungkol sa status ng resignation ko (coffee break na walang kape.. hehe). hindi ko naman first time gumamit ng microwacve oven... first time kolang magluto ng popcorn don. puro kain lang kasi ang ginagawa ko. :)
ang sabi sa instructions, 2 minutes daw ang pagluluto non, at most, 2 minutes and 30 sec. dahan dahan kong nilagay ang popcorn sa loob ng oven at pinindot ng dalawang beses ang 1 minute button. ang saya! habang pumuputok-putok at nangangamoy na ang popcorn, tuloy ang kwentuhan namin ni may... maya maya pa, tumunog na ang "ding" senyales na tapos na ang 2 minutes. naririnig ko pa na may pumuputok pa kaya naisip ko na pindutin pa ang 30 mins. button.

langhap..
langhap...
 wow.....
ding!

binuksan ko nang buong tuwa ang oven... nagulat ako sa usok sa loob nito...

waaahhh!!!!!!!!
hindi pwede!!!!!!

nasunog ang kinatatakaman kong popcorn! mainit pa nang ito'y binuksan ko... lumabas ang mas makapal pang usok... at imbis na dilaw e itim na ang mga popcorn... sa sobrang sama ng loob ke itinapon ko nalang ito...
natatarantang nagbabaan isa-isa nag mga officemates ko...
"nasaan na ung popcorn??", " anung nangyare, bakit nasunog??"

at ang pinakamasakit na tanong... "hindi ka ba marunong gumamit ng microwave??"

nagflash back tuloy ung experience ko dati few years ago, nakasunog din ako sa microwave kasama ung kaibigan ko.. dahil sa gusto namin ng madaliang midnight snack.. pinilit namin lutuin ung frozen na hotdog sa microwave... kinalabasan... isang kaawa awang tuyot na hotdog. natawa nalang ako nung naalala ko un...


buti nalang hindi nagalit ang boss ko sa nangyare... haaayyy.... dumikit ang amoy ng sunog na popcorn sa damit ko na hanggang ngayon e naamoy ko pa... sa sama ng loob ko, napabili nalang ako ng nilagang mais para miryenda.


P.S. ~ ginugle ko lang po ang picture na yan... parang ganyan kasi ung kinalabasan ng popcorn :(
pinalitan ko na nga pala ung backround song ko,, laging may natatakot kasi sa intro ng enveloped ideas ng The Dawn e... :)

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to stay or to go...
gesmunds
I’m trying to make a draft of my resignation letter. But I can’t type even a single word except, Dear Sir. Just last week, my friends happily informed me that they want me to join their team in their newly established advertising agency. My heart jumped in excitement as they explained to me how promising the company is. After a few days of thinking it through, I have finally decided and said ‘yes’ to their offer.


But right now,, my dilemma is whether to go or to stay. November 2004 since my current employer hired me to be their general accountant. I have learned a lot and gained a lot of friends. Working in an advertising industry is such a lot of fun. But I can tell that it’s very very frustrating for me. Frustrating because here is where I realized that I shouldn’t took Management Accounting as a college course. Maybe I should have taken Fine Arts major in Advertising, Creative Writing, Marketing and the like. Though I enjoyed my stay in this company and considered my officemates now as my own family, I can’t help longing to break free. I feel like a victim by our employer. As an accountant, I can see the flow of his financials and I realized that we, his employees are not included in his priorities. Unadjusted salaries, sometimes delayed, poor benefits, unremitted tax and other governmental benefits, and a bunch of – I can consider – rotten system practices of most Filipino employers who thinks that you’re lucky that he give you a job. Even the complimentary magazines that we used to receive every month from various publications, he blocked it. I know I should be thankful for having a job unlike a million other Filipinos struggling to have one. But I can’t help but wish to have a better employer. An employer who reminds you of your worth in their company and then if you’re lucky, you’ll receive incentives.
I have a lot of reasons to leave but same as to stay. I’ll miss the coziness in the office with my beloved officemates, who already know whenever I’m okay or not. The endless stories and laughter while we work, the cool sounds, the food trips during overtime, gimiks, fun photoshoots, the team effort that transformed us into responsible individuals, all of this and a lot more in almost 5 years, the reasons that dragging me to stay.
I’m contemplating in writing a letter… I don’t know how to start but I want it to be just simple and concise. As my Ate said, “formality lang naman yan eh!” And as to what I feel right now, I am grateful… for the years of tears and laughter, for everything that I experienced and learned, for the trials that made me hope, for not letting my hopes die and for facing a new phase in my life!

Currently Playing:

“Sleepless nights when your memory consumed me But they all have been long gone… I’m so much more than what you cared to see. You drove me away Now I can move forward. Move forward…” – Anthem by Urbandub

“Parked car this night sky, makes city lights shine like diamonds.. our song plays on the radio…” – First of Summer by Urbandub (theme song namin to habang nakatambay sa may kanto!)
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Aaawww...
gesmunds
Eto ang naging reaction ko nang nagreply ang dad ko sa akin…

Ganto kasi yon…


Kahapon,, nagpaload ako sa globe sim ko after 45 years.. palibhasa batang araw na rin ako ngayon :)

so aun, naisip kong itext ang dad ko… hanap..hanap… hanggang sa nakakita ako ng maayos na mensahe na nagpapakita ng konting ‘care’. Hindi naman kasi ako ganun kaclose sa dad ko,, hindi rin naman normal sa min ang pagiging cheesy.. ewan ko ba, absent kami malamang ng magpasabog si lord ng sweetness sa mga tao.. tsk tsk..

“Laughter drains all stress for the whole day. May you always be happy, and have that big smile on your face as having the Lord in your heart always! Ingat lagi! :)

Simple lang di ba?!
Sa hindi ko inaasahan, nagreply ang dad ko na kahapon e nasa Cavite, sa business site niya…

“wen u txt me with dat kind of phrase it inspires me to work more n more..it gives me a little sigh n comfort…just continue ur good work and who knows.. u mayb d nxt Gloria hopefully.”

Aawww… kala ku nung una quote din, hehe! Akalain mo, napasok sa isipan ng tatay ko na maging Gloria ako someday??! Ehe. Sabay relpy ko ng “ay ayoko po ng gloria, kung cory – winner un!”

Un na, nateary-eyed na ko.. iba kasi talaga pag galing sa magulang ang mensahe.. bawat salita may tama. Na kahit may kulang, may napupunan na rin unti-unti..
Kung meron man sa inyo na medyo katulad ko na nagstuggle sa mga awkward moments sa mga parents.. try niyo lang subukan sa text ipakita ang care… habang may panahon pa tayo bumawi sa kanila sa lahat ng pagod para mairaos ang pagpapalaki sa atin. Minsan care o malasakit na lang talaga ang maisusukli natin.. ang malaman nila na mahal natin sila at sobrang pinagpapahalagahan natin ang mga ginawa nila para satin. Hanggat buhay pa sila at pwede pa tayong marinig at makita.. hindi rin sila perpekto gaya natin pero may mga bagay na kailangan nating maintindihan sa kanila maliban sa pagnanais natin na maintindihan nila tayo.


In my case… I still need improvement, more practice pa kumbaga. Pero sabi nga ng kaibigan ko na si Anne, ung intention lang na gusto mo rin mag reach out - your half the battle na!

Nakakapagod din ang trabaho ko pero carry! You made my day dad! Tc! :)

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tear-jerk me...
gesmunds
wish ko talaga may muwang na ako during Cory's Presidency.


"Ako’y nagpapasalamat sa inyong lahat at lalong-lalo na sa Panginoong Diyos, na ginawa niya akong isang Pilipino. Talagang karangalan ko iyon, na maging katulad niyo at maraming salamat sa lahat ng tulong na ibinigay niyo sa akin." – Corazon C. Aquino (1933 – 2009)




andaming mga nagbigay na magagandang eulogy for the late former president, Mrs. Cory Aquino. i heard a lot,, a read a lot... actually, i have nothing to comment at all, theres no way to disagree. lahat ng sinabi nila tama!

but what striked me most was Kris Aquino's eulogy...

coz i was once a mourner for a lost mother..

lalong bumaha ng luha sa bahay namin nang narinig namin ni ate ang mga linyang ito...



“I’m sorry mom, I lied to you. Nagsinungaling ako when I told you na we would be okay. I did this because we wanted you to be free from all your pain at para hindi ka na mag-alala tungkol sa amin. Pero, mom, it would take a lifetime for us to be okay because we will forever miss you,”



cant help but cry.. i felt every word that she said... god, i miss my mom...



totoo ung mga sinabi niya...



"how do I find the words to say goodbye? paano ba magpaalam kapag alam mo, alam ng puso mo na hindi pa rin sapat ang panahon na ibinahagi sayo ng Diyos sa piling ng iyong pinakamamahal..."



i was 16 when i lost my mom.. its been almost 10 years since that unforgivable cancer take her away from us... and it still hurts... a lot of what might have been's endlessly running through my head... i have nothing to say anymore... i might breakdown now...



i admire Kris for this heartfelt eulogy.. to be able to tell the world how much she loves her mom and proud being her daughter.



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