I have the need to write.. I don’t know for what reason but I believe I really have to..Tamang-tama, wala si daddy,, solong solo ko ang computer! Sa wakas nakakapag-sound trip na naman ako ng talagang malakas! Bawal umangal ang mga kapit-bahay once na patutugtugin ko ang personal sound track ko >> eheads! Isarado nalang nila mga bintana nila kapag narining na nila ang butterscotch, hey jay, slomo, milk and money, andalusian dog, saturn return, waiting for the bus, hahaha, at ang iba pang eternal favorite hits ko ng eheads!
Life can sometimes be very confusing.. eventhough you know for yourself whats your reason for living, the direction.. but then along the way you’ll find yourself losin your way,,,
I guess that’s the way it is. “at ngayon, di pa rin alam kung bat tayo nandito, pwede bang itigil mo na ang pag-ikot ng mundo.” Sometimes we tend to runaway, to escape,, but at the end of the day, you’ll ask.. I’m running away from what?? what for??
Tama ba talaga na isipin na theres something missing in your life? Sa kabila ng blessings na natatamo natin.. bakit hindi parin tayo nakuntento? Tapus pag may problema tayo, sobra galit natin sa mundo without even realizing kung anu-ano na nga ba mga pinag-gagagawa natin sa mga buhay natin? Minsan kasi may pagkakataon na kapag alam natin sa sarili natin na tama tayo (kahit mali) we tend to justify it! (un parang: masakit ngipin mo pero kain ka pa rin ng ice cream kasi trip mo,, mangangat’wiran ka “according to studies ok daw kumain ng ice cream kapag masakit ang ngipin para ma-reverse mo ung sakit.. parang +1-1=0” tapus maya-maya, tahimik kana lang sa isang tabi sa sakit ng ngipin mo na umabot na hanggang sa ulo mo). minsan kahit pointless sige paren.. “eh trip ko e!” im happy with what im doing, nobody can stop me!” pwede ring ‘I have the right to do whatever I wanted to!” freewill kumbaga! Tapos ang masaklap dun.. kapag nag-fail tayo sa ibang bagay,, we tend to blame other people for the failure. Maaaring pamilya natin, nanay, tatay, mga utol, kaibigan, gf/bf. Nadadamay na minsan pati past mo, ung upbringing sayo, environment, gobyerno.. (naks! getting intellectual kuno! Hehehe!). The inclination of getting what we need or want as the best things to get rid of the said failure is chasing you! we’re trying to believe that there really is something missing in our life, well in fact we just failed to recognize the best things, the best people, best resources and assets that we already have which is also what we need to make the most out of our lives.
Di kaya nagiging pasaway lang tayo sa buhay? Kahit minsan alam na alam naman natin ang tama at mali pero nagiging pasaway lang talaga! Wanna prove something out of ourselves?? Taking for granted the things that are essential to us like our studies, works, relationships.. time.
Hindi ako nagsusulat ngayon para manermon o magbigay ng advise.. well, kung tamaan ka, mas mainam.. pero higit kanino man gusto kong sabihin to sa sarili ko! (nya nya nya!!)
Eto na yata ung sinasabi sakin ng ka-brod ko tungkol sa “Delay Obedience” – Psalms 119:60 (getting spiritual now!).Ouch!! un ung pagpapaliban sa paggawa ng tama,,sa pagsunod! un din ung mga katwiran na "saka na ko magpapakabait,, wanna have fun now! wanna live my life to the fullest!" –OK! may ganun akong tendencies e! pero parang mali yata..
Why delay Madj? Move! Move! Go ahead! Anu pang hinihintay mo? You have a lot of things you want to do out of your life diba.. so what are you doing? Why are you messing around? Forget about those failures! Sail on! How soon is now??
Truly, its hard to move forward if everyone around you are moving so fast that you don’t know if you could be as good as them as you run your own life.. just fight the good fight! “You just look to the left and just look to the right, nakikita mo naman na hindi pantay-pantay. Hey, hey, hey, hey jay, be happy everyday, everything’s gonna be okay!”
Well, for me… getting ahead means… first of all,, swallow and digest this article! (yeah right!), write in my new journal again, after I lost them ( ;< ), finish reading my book so I can fin’ly start my new one (feed my mind!), clean our house, try to get up early so I can cook our breakfast, empty my pending tray.. at marami pang iba!!
“ngunit kahit ano, makakarating din tayo, kung saan man tayo patungo ang daan ma’y liku-liko minsan malabo.. kita-kita sa dulo!”
