Trying pointlessly to understand
Having nothing to say
Just shadows and what remains boxed inside,
This is what I call my enveloped ideas.
Singing out my enveloped ideas...
Doesn't seem all too bad.
Hoping it would be easier
To sing out my Enveloped Ideas.- The Dawn
"I spent today outside a funfair, since I can’t afford to fritter my money away, I thought it best to watch other people. I stood for a long time by a roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search of excitement, but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop. What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn’t they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going around and around and then stop? At the moment, im far too lonely to think about love, but I have to believe that it will happen, that I will find a job and that I am here because I chose this fate. The roller coaster is my life, life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; its taking chances, falling over and getting up and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don’t manage it. It isn’t easy being far from my family and from whom the language in which I can express all my feelings and emotions, but, from now on, whenever I feel depressed, I will remember that funfair. If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up in a roller coaster, what would I feel? Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement." - MAria , Eleven Minutes
>> I'm still alive,, yes I am! Bigger and Better, Bolder and Wiser me,, ready to kick some ass! haha! matagal-tagal rin ang hinintay ko.. Well,, finally... I'M BACK!
I'm remembering someone very special today and I thought it would be nice to stop in whatever's keeping me busy and write something. Surprisingly, I can't think of any. My mind is clouded. Blurry. Tired. Then I realized, I don't wanna think about him anymore.
With what I'm feeling right now, having a glimpse of him in the past, all the smiles and the aches, the mere fact that he's still in my heart, I'm thankful!
Currently Playing:
Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed
You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh! He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
You're the best, and yes, I do regret How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's learned I touched it, I was burned Oh, I think you should know!
Oh, won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? Oh, no more mistakes 'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay
JUST A DREAM
I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream... So I travel back (uh) down that road (road) Will she come back? (Uh) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream. I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement I swear now I can't take it Knowing somebody's got my baby Now you ain't around, baby I can't think I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring Cuz I can still feel it in the air See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair My love of my life, My shawty, my wife She left me, Im tied. Cuz I knew that it just ain't right I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream... So I travel back (Uh) Down that road (Yeah) Will she come back? (back) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream. When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn Trying to get my usher on but I can let it burn And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for
No more will I miss her, when will I learn? Didn't give her all my love I guess now I got my payback Now im in the club thinking all about my baby HEY, she was so easy to love But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone But she made a decision that she wanted to move on Cause I was wrong.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up If you ever loved somebody put your hands up Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
"You must not expect anything from others. It's you, of yourself, of whom you must ask a lot. Only from oneself has the right to ask everything and anything. This way it's up to you -- your own choices -- what you get from others remains a present, a gift." - Albert Schweitzer
In Pursuit of Christ
"It is not that I have already taken hold of it or have already attained perfect maturity but I continue my pursuit in the hope that I may possess it, since I have indeed been taken possession of by Christ." Phil. 3:12
Currently in my Playlist
* Boston by Augustana * Maybe Its Just Me by Butch Walker * I Miss You by Blink 182 * You Wanted More by Tonic * Drops From Jupiter by Train * Fill Her by Eraserheads * The Man Who Can't Be Movedby The Script
"Though I can't see you, I can feel you. I'm so glad you opened my door.." - Fill Her, Eraserheads
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