"Sometimes things hit you in the most unexpected ways"

Paggising pa lang sa umaga mabigat na pakiramdam ko. Alam ko kasing merong mangyayaring ayoko sa araw nato. Ideya pa lang nakakabad trip na, dagdagan pa isang text message mula sa taong yon na mababago ang schedule ng pagkikita nio. ansaya diba? sira ang plano ko para sa buong araw.. minsan na nga lang maglleave- napurnada pa! good morning to me!

Should be Schedule:
* 9 am - meet my former HR head, punta sa SSS para mag-ayos ng mga dokumentong kelangan ayusin
* 12 pm - lunch
* 1 pm - mall
* 3 pm - go to my dentist
* 4:30 pm - go to a doctor - check up
* 6pm - home sweet home!

Instead Schedule:
* 9 am - lunch
* 11 am - lumabas ng bahay - hindi alam kung san pupunta.

Sana pumasok nalang ako, at least may masayang kausap sa opisina. Pero kelangan kong samantalahin ang once-in-a-blue-moon-leave ko.
Dapat rin nanahimik na lang ako sa boarding house,, pero grabeng nakakabato ang presensya ng tv na walang cable at ng kamang nanghihikayat na matulog.

Sumakay ako ng jeep mula muntinlupa, hindi ko alam kung san pupunta.. matapos ang halos kalahating oras na byahe nakarating ako ng binan, pinababa na ko ng driver. sumakay ulit ako ng jeep. tulala mode. ewan ko, gusto ko lang bumyahe, mawala, mapagod, lumayo. ang dami daming laman ng utak ko kahit labas-pasok lang naman ang mga ito..

* ayokong makita ang dati kong hr head at mag-ayos ng mga inaamag na mga files sa sss. hindi ko na trabaho un! na-turn over ko na sa kanya, bakit ako pa rin hinahanap nio?? isa pa, ayoko nang balikan ang mga bagay na tapos na sa akin.
* Wala na kong pera - ang haba ng August, ayaw pa matapos! ggrrr...
* gusto kong manood ng senate investigation ng pnp - di ko magawa, waalng cable!
* namimiss ko na ung dalawang close friends ko! ung isa serious sa pag-aaral, ung isa naman serious na sa girlfriend. wala na kong kakulitan, wala na kong kasabay kumain ng dinner, wala na kong kahagikhikan, wala na kong kausap ng malaliman. i must admit, namimiss ko na sila., nakakamiss din pala sila! wahehehe...
* love life ko - major major wala nang nagiging progress! TSE!!! :)
* at marami pang iba.

* 1pm - napunta ako sa cabuyao,, sa isang monastery doon.. madalas ako dun dati nung taga roon pa ko. Poor Claire Monastery. pag gusto kong ipahinga ang isip ko, dun ako napunta,, 3 years na since narelocate ako, kaya ngayon lang ako nakabalik dun. nagulat ako sa sarili ko, hindi ko pinlano, dun nalang ako dinala ng jeep. sarap talagang kausap ni Lord,, parang nagiging okay ang lahat. thank you po. :)

* 2:45 pm nakarating na ko agad sa sss office. dumating ung dati kong mam 3:10, not bad. sa lahat ng nangyare,, ayos ang kinalabasan ng meeting. mahabang proseso pero ang maganda nasimulan na. yeah!

* 6 pm - check up- buti nahabol ko pa ung isang doctor.. kaso wala na ung dentist ko.

andaming nangyare sa buong maghapon,, napagod ako kakabyahe,, amoy usok na ko!
minsan magugulat kana lang sa pwedeng mangyare kahit na alam mo na ang dapat iexpect. masaya din pala makareceive ng mga little surprises mula kay lord. parang sinasabi niya na: "my dear, dont under estimate me"

just when i thought that today is gonna be an undesirable day,, but it turned out to be a meaningful one!
Hanggang sa susunod na trip ride!

Currently Playing: You Already Know by Train

I would like to share to you about a friend.. My room mate.Though we have a lot of differences,, our perceptions and opinions still meet in some point of life.
Last night,, while we're having our one-on-one drinking session..
We talked about our journals and whats written on it. She only started writing on it for only about 2 weeks,, she told me she got it from me.
She showed me her scribblings of whatever is on her mind day by day. I can tell she's good. I told her to start blogging but she said its really not her thing.
I was surprise to read her own "guidelines" or let me say "Guidelines for Survival"?? haha! I have my own version but its in my other journal. Let me just share hers:

* Focus on what you have.
* Don't compare yourself to others.
* Its just money,, you cant bring it to your grave.
* You have your family and loved ones.
* You'll have your own turn.
* 2012 Vision - Live like you're dying! (i told her about it, hehe!)
* God is the one who scheduling things. Just be patient.
* Be positive.

She told me that everytime that she's confused about something, she's reading her guidelines over and over. I wanna read this whenever i will feel dissatisfied. What I like the most is the 5th, "you'll have your own turn!" - yeah, i believe that!

I admit,, im really learning from her even though i have a lot of complains about her (household chores, love problems, etc.).
Despite the differences,, I'm really glad i have her as my room mate and ka-nomo!
Last night was one of our best conversations - Winner!


Currently Playing: Because I Got High by Afroman

for me it means,,'sakit muna bago magBoracay!' grrr.. damn dysmenorrhea!

para naman sa mga officemates ko, lalo na sa creatives,, it means 'mag dusa ka muna sa trabaho bago ka magbora!' hehehe!eto.., share ko sa inyo ung itinerary namin sa Bora.. buti nalang super organize ni boss Carlo! Astig! ;) pinost ko narin to para (maliban sa pang-iinggit) makatulong sa mga gusto din pumunta dun... ;-)

Grabe,, I cant hide my excitement na,, nawwirdohan na rin mga kasama ko dito sa opisina sa sobrang nakangiti lang ako palagi! E, matagal-tagal din naman kasi namin to hinintay! Weeeh!

need to:
complete my things-to-bring list
shop shop shop!
diet - nah! oh pls!
songs songs songs and a lot - in my mp3!
pack and packwant to:
jog with sunrise at the shore
spend time with sunblock and get wild!
alcohol and noise here I come
zorb or zip? - ha!
dig my toes into the sand
Mismo! uh-oh!
shades, starfish and snorkeling
get wet with the sun
buffet buffet buffet - whoa!
reflect with the glorious scene

If You Asked Me To

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

(But if you asked me to...)

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby

If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...

You can easily make people believe
of who you want to be for them.
“What you see is what is what you get.”
You often tell your friends that.
That’s pretty amazing. How do you do it??

You said you’re stupid, you don''t know a thing.
You said you didn’t mean it.
You said you’re in love when you’re playing.
You said everything that you say is just joke.
I thought I know you, but now, not at all.
So I say now you’re kinda pretentious.

How long will you play tricks with people?
How long will you find comfort from hiding yourself?
I thought you’re real when you’re with me.
I thought you're different,, I believed in you.
Just didn’t expect that.., but yeah, I should’ve known.

Currently Playing:
Go Your Own Way by The Cranberries

Loving you
Isn't the right thing to do
How can I ever change things
That I feel

If I could
Maybe I'd give you my world
How can I
When you won't take it from me

You can go your own way
Go your own way
You can call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way

Tell me why
Everything turned around
Packing up
Shacking up is all you wanna do

If I could
Baby I'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you

Bago ang lahat, gusto ko munang gawin to..


Haaaayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!


Para sa lahat-lahat ng nangyare sa loob ng mahigit isang linggo… whew!!!

Naranasan ko ulit ang maging unemployed. Pinili ko muna magpahinga sa lahat ng normal na gawain at magpaka-bum. Marami akong gustong gawin kaso hindi sapat ung isang linggo na pahinga.. gayumpaman,, masaya ako at may makabuluhan at makulay na nangyare sa buhay ko sa loob ng mga araw na yon. :)

sa sobrang saya ko, pakiramdam ko nasa ulap pa ko, hehehe! sa susunod na post nalang ako magkkwento tungkol dun...


mejo wala pa ako sa sarili ko nang nagbukas ako ng blogger account ko... sa hindi ko inaasahan, may mga surpresa palang naghihintay sa akin!

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sa totoo lang, hindi pa talaga ako ganun kasanay sa mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa blogosphere..

natutuwa lang talaga akong magbasa tungkol sa mga self expressions and sharings ng mga blogista...

at isa pa, hindi ko maipagkakaila na masarap din ang pakiramdam na ma-appreciate ng kapwa blogista ang mga sinisigaw ng isip ko na naipararating lamang sa pamamgitan ng pagsusulat dito.


masaya ako dahil ngayon lang ako nakakuha ng award! :)

kahit kailan e hindi naman ako nasanay na tumanggap ng mga awards/recognitions dahil isa lang akong simpleng tao,, masaya lang ako na may kumakausap sakin, ok na un. :)

kaya naman sobrang nagpapasalamat ako kay Czaroma ng A Woman Remembers para sa Strengthen Friendship Award na shinare niya sakin..

The award above signifies:

Green : symbolizes the new buddies
Yellow : represents the guys who are always active
Blue : symbolizes the bloggers with PR
Platform Red : symbolizes that we are all equal and that we are brothers and sisters

Here are the rules for the award:

1. Create a post as above.
2. Include the link Giver Award.
3. For colleagues who have not followed this site or not exchange links, please follow or exchange links with me.
4. Copy-paste the image above


at dahil dyan, ipinapasa ko ngayon ang award na ito sa mga bago kong kaibigan dito sa blogosphere... sana ay magpatuloy pa ang friendship at patuloy pa rin kayong maka-inspire ng ibang beginners na katulad ko.. :)

maraming salamat!!!


ipagpatuloy ang daloy ng alon... :)


Basyon
Chikletz
Reigun
Deth
Homer


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at sa iyo Basyon, salamat sa pag-follow mo sa akin...
hindi ko alam ang ang ibig sabihin ng follower, pero pinindot ko lang basta..
e aun, nakakatuwa na meron rin pumatos!
isang magandang surpresa ito para sa akin!!!
Take care of yourself and Avril! :)

Currently Playing:

Here Comes the Sun by Sheryl Crow

August 21, my girlfriends and I had our night out (by the way, they are Cel, Carla, Khate and Anne, my high school close friends). It was Cel and Khate’s post birthday celeb so we decided to go somewhere we can eat and celebrate, see a movie and drink coffee after to catch up. SM Sta. Rosa was a fair place for that event.


As we enter Pizza Hut we saw familiar faces. It was Lana and Jomar, high school classmates of ours. It was weird to see them out dining alone though I heard some news back then that they really got close during college since they both studied in Manila. They said they are just friends and they have their own love lives – okay! As I said, it’s just weird.


Truthfully, Jomar was my first love. Nobody in my girlfriends knew about that, only two of my friends back in high school but I have not been with them for a long time now.

He has changed. He got fat, haha! He was cuter back in high school. I remember his sweet eyes and warm smile. Our comfortable conversations about how we hated the world and love music. We exchanged cassette tapes and CDs of Eraserheads albums, Rivermaya, PNE, Survivor, Cruisin love song selections, Scorpions and a lot more. I still have Phil Collins’ best hits album that he gave me, though it doesn’t play anymore. I remember, I lend him some song hits with chords of Eheads songs and the 1001 Book, we also shared some tips in playing guitar. I still have the drawing he gave me of Ghostfighter character, Dennis, the one with the rose. He was very good on it and I loved it. It was with him that I started to appreciate and understand every song’s lyrics from the song “Halaga”. I remember how he brighten up my day everyday in our high school years that I wonder how I managed to hide it from him and from our classmates. I’ll never forget the day he held my hand one afternoon before school departure. I still have the card he gave me before we graduate. Lastly, I still remember how I felt when he told me that he was falling for our classmate Chat, a beautiful musician.


He sat beside me. Since we never had the chance to communicate after our graduation day, we were able to talk about it that night. We shared some laugh and brief stories. I learned about his career and failed relationship as I told him mine. We talked about how he thought he was about to be married, then how he struggled to overcome a bad break up and what the pain had made him.

It’s good to know that I don’t feel the same, I mean I don’t get hurt anymore unlike before. Duh! It’s been like.. uhm.. 8… 9 years, I even don’t remember the sound of his voice! We don’t know what happened to us, we never dared to talk it out. My sister said I’ve been fooled. Well, I guess we all have our fair share of being foolish when in comes to love. I’m glad that everything was just so cool and it’s good to be hearing from him after all these years! I just wonder if he had anything to do with my love life that just quite made a little pattern that started from what happened in us. ;) Well, I just wish him – well!

I still remember a lot of things we’ve shared. I guess, that’s just the way I love, that’s the way I am. I don’t know if he still remember some of the things I’ve mentioned but if ever we’d be able to talk about this... I know we’ll be laughing so damn hard!

Currently Playing: Dear Paul by Barbie’s Cradle
Now by MYMP

nakapanood ako ng Grey's Anatomy Season 4 kahapon pagkatapos ng 50 years na pagmmovie marathon. napansin ko tong linyang ito na narelate ako... nainis si Christina sa babagal-bagal at walang kusang intern na si Lexie (lol)

Lexie: Are you okay?
Christina: Don't ask me if I'm okay.
Lexie: Okay.
Christina: Ugh, you make me sick. Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own. - Losing My Mind


last friday.. medyo naasar ako sa officemate ko... ayaw niya tanggapin ang ilang trabaho na iiwanan ko... as i can see, kayang-kaya niya un at hindi ko naman irerecomend na ibigay sa kanya ung trabaho kung alam kong hindi niya kaya... its for her own advantage. pero tinanggihan niya ko.. medyo nanghihinayang ako kasi nakakahon nalang siya sa trabaho niya ngayon... simpleng simple nalang sa kanya lahat... at naiirita ako knowing na binibigay ko sa kanya ang work load na kung saan may chance siyang mag-grow..lalo pa ngayon na aalis na ko..

nakakahinayang at nakakairita... siguro dahil rin talaga sa rejection... pero yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...

baka mabasa mo to,..pasensiya na walang personalan ha, trabaho lang...
you're still my dear friend...
two weeks to go...
im going to miss you...

may hindi inaasahang nangyare kaninang hapon... naloka ako! kumusta naman ang natanga sa microwave...
may dala akong popcorn na kelangang isalang sa microwave para ma-enjoy... nagpasama ako sa officemate ko na si may na bumaba sabay tsikahan naren tungkol sa status ng resignation ko (coffee break na walang kape.. hehe). hindi ko naman first time gumamit ng microwacve oven... first time kolang magluto ng popcorn don. puro kain lang kasi ang ginagawa ko. :)
ang sabi sa instructions, 2 minutes daw ang pagluluto non, at most, 2 minutes and 30 sec. dahan dahan kong nilagay ang popcorn sa loob ng oven at pinindot ng dalawang beses ang 1 minute button. ang saya! habang pumuputok-putok at nangangamoy na ang popcorn, tuloy ang kwentuhan namin ni may... maya maya pa, tumunog na ang "ding" senyales na tapos na ang 2 minutes. naririnig ko pa na may pumuputok pa kaya naisip ko na pindutin pa ang 30 mins. button.

langhap..
langhap...
wow.....
ding!

binuksan ko nang buong tuwa ang oven... nagulat ako sa usok sa loob nito...

waaahhh!!!!!!!!
hindi pwede!!!!!!

nasunog ang kinatatakaman kong popcorn! mainit pa nang ito'y binuksan ko... lumabas ang mas makapal pang usok... at imbis na dilaw e itim na ang mga popcorn... sa sobrang sama ng loob ke itinapon ko nalang ito...

natatarantang nagbabaan isa-isa nag mga officemates ko...
"nasaan na ung popcorn??", " anung nangyare, bakit nasunog??"

at ang pinakamasakit na tanong... "hindi ka ba marunong gumamit ng microwave??"

nagflash back tuloy ung experience ko dati few years ago, nakasunog din ako sa microwave kasama ung kaibigan ko.. dahil sa gusto namin ng madaliang midnight snack.. pinilit namin lutuin ung frozen na hotdog sa microwave... kinalabasan... isang kaawa awang tuyot na hotdog. natawa nalang ako nung naalala ko un...


buti nalang hindi nagalit ang boss ko sa nangyare... haaayyy.... dumikit ang amoy ng sunog na popcorn sa damit ko na hanggang ngayon e naamoy ko pa... sa sama ng loob ko, napabili nalang ako ng nilagang mais para miryenda.


P.S. ~ ginugle ko lang po ang picture na yan... parang ganyan kasi ung kinalabasan ng popcorn :(
pinalitan ko na nga pala ung backround song ko,, laging may natatakot kasi sa intro ng enveloped ideas ng The Dawn e... :)

Currently Playing: I Want Something That I Want by Bethany Joy Galleoti

I’m trying to make a draft of my resignation letter. But I can’t type even a single word except, Dear Sir. Just last week, my friends happily informed me that they want me to join their team in their newly established advertising agency. My heart jumped in excitement as they explained to me how promising the company is. After a few days of thinking it through, I have finally decided and said ‘yes’ to their offer.


But right now,, my dilemma is whether to go or to stay. November 2004 since my current employer hired me to be their general accountant. I have learned a lot and gained a lot of friends. Working in an advertising industry is such a lot of fun. But I can tell that it’s very very frustrating for me. Frustrating because here is where I realized that I shouldn’t took Management Accounting as a college course. Maybe I should have taken Fine Arts major in Advertising, Creative Writing, Marketing and the like. Though I enjoyed my stay in this company and considered my officemates now as my own family, I can’t help longing to break free. I feel like a victim by our employer. As an accountant, I can see the flow of his financials and I realized that we, his employees are not included in his priorities. Unadjusted salaries, sometimes delayed, poor benefits, unremitted tax and other governmental benefits, and a bunch of – I can consider – rotten system practices of most Filipino employers who thinks that you’re lucky that he give you a job. Even the complimentary magazines that we used to receive every month from various publications, he blocked it. I know I should be thankful for having a job unlike a million other Filipinos struggling to have one. But I can’t help but wish to have a better employer. An employer who reminds you of your worth in their company and then if you’re lucky, you’ll receive incentives.
I have a lot of reasons to leave but same as to stay. I’ll miss the coziness in the office with my beloved officemates, who already know whenever I’m okay or not. The endless stories and laughter while we work, the cool sounds, the food trips during overtime, gimiks, fun photoshoots, the team effort that transformed us into responsible individuals, all of this and a lot more in almost 5 years, the reasons that dragging me to stay.
I’m contemplating in writing a letter… I don’t know how to start but I want it to be just simple and concise. As my Ate said, “formality lang naman yan eh!” And as to what I feel right now, I am grateful… for the years of tears and laughter, for everything that I experienced and learned, for the trials that made me hope, for not letting my hopes die and for facing a new phase in my life!

Currently Playing:

“Sleepless nights when your memory consumed me But they all have been long gone… I’m so much more than what you cared to see. You drove me away Now I can move forward. Move forward…” – Anthem by Urbandub

“Parked car this night sky, makes city lights shine like diamonds.. our song plays on the radio…” – First of Summer by Urbandub (theme song namin to habang nakatambay sa may kanto!)

Paminsan-minsan lang tayong magkasama
Di pa pwedeng magtagal habol ang oras nagmamadali parang si cinderella?. hinahabol ang hating gabi?

Akala ko ba ay nabago na ng ihip ng hangin ang ating samahan
Dati kasi sabay tayong mag-inuman, mag-kantahan, mag-contest sa payabangan?

Chorus:
Paminsan minsan lang tayong mag-kasama di pa pwedeng magtagal habol
Ang oras nagmamadali parang si cinderella hinahabol ang hating gabi?.

Kamusta na?(kamusta na) kamusta na? kailan ba tayong huling nagkita?
Ikaw pa rin ba ang dating ikaw? ako? ako pa rin ito
(repeat chorus 2x)

Paminsan-minsan lang tayong magkasama ang kasiyahan ng barkada ay simulan na patugtugin ng bidyoke at tayo?y mag kantahan na? buksan na ang mga bote ng beer at tayo?y mag-inuman nahhh?

Just last Sunday I went to my close friend’s despedida party. Selfish as I am – I feel so sad yet happy for her good fate. I guess I just cant stand why people have to leave…especially those who are close to me.. so close to me. They are gradually moving away – in pursuing good life. good life…

She’s my kababata… and since my Ate got married, she had been my refuge everytime I encounter rocky situations. A sister, indeed.

We had a drink, smoked cigars.. reminisce our distant past.. wondering,, will we still be able to do this again?? I gave her one of my favorite necklace and told her to wear it in able to remember me. It hurts really. I have to hide my tears simply because we’re not used to tolerate dramas in life… or maybe not this time.

Tonight I’m crying …crying because I can feel the loss. I feel so empty and helpless – just tonight. I hate it when someone leaves. Why does it have to happen? We’ve been apart for few months and we barely send text messages to each other. I know I shouldn’t feel this way but the thought of her going to other country is undeniably depressing. And I can’t hide my fear when I learned that another close friend of mine is going to follow her and also about to leave few months from now. Kelangan ba talaga mangyari to???

I hate it when my friends are moving away. Maybe I hate the fact that I’ll be left behind. Where am I supposed to go now? They say things happen for a purpose.. but I don’t want it. Truly there are things that we really don’t have control of.. and its making me weak. All I have right now are photographs. Everything is changing and I don’t feel the same – even if I convince myself that everything will be okay.

The people who have great impacts in my life… who knows me better… like Maryjhoy… as well as Kuya Jr (who’s also leaving on the 29^{th —} sigh)… and as the rain falls outside my window… allow me… to cry myself to sleep.

Currently Playing: Minsan by Eraserheads

Photographs by Nickelback

Landslide by Smashing Pumpkins

Hi there! It’s a while.. I could say that I’m really having a great time nowadays… so busy… can’t even take the time to write. Well, its me…

I have a great month… ups and downs and a lot of adventures are coming my way. Everything is happening for a lesson to learn. Great summer.. great vacation…great time… great trials to balance each.

This time I would like to tell about a new friend who happens to be my board mate. As she told me all about her life.. somehow I felt the connecting thread between us. Surprisingly, she is someone who is exactly my opposite. But we have something in common – very common.. alcohol & cigarettes… bwahahaha! We had a 1-on-1 drinking session tonight. I accepted her invitation because I know I need the comfort tonight because I feel so lonesome. She told me a lot of things about herself and I did likewise. The great thing about our talk was when she told me about her own obsessive compulsiveness (now you know why we’re so opposites). How she get so upset whenever changes comes in her way. even in petty things – like for example.. the position of her pillows in her bed.. it should be in the right location – the way she wanted it – and she feels discomfort whenever she failed to position her pillows the way she wanted it. Those little things irritates her.. she worries too much. I said she’s being hard on herself and she admits that. She makes things complicated. And that’s something that she doesn’t like about herself. And she adopts the same attitude even in other important matters in her life. then she concluded that its because of the effects of the painful memories she had from her childhood (I will not elaborate on this part – very long story hehe!) I was amazed when she told me how she envy me. (Whattt??? Hmm.. yes she told me that! But just a bit). She told me that she wish she was like me… carefree.. who doesn’t worry even if my slippers are just scattered beside my bed.. my necklace is just in my bed instead of being on my bag or somewhere (not in my bed!).. my notebooks, books and other reading materials are just in the other side of my bed., instead of being in the bookshelf… my pillows and blanket aren’t neatly placed in my bed when I leave it in the morning… how I laugh eagerly for simple tv commercials that she don’t even notice not until she saw me laughing at it. She envy how light my life can be that I can smile always (well she doesn’t really know me well yet, haha!). I told her I have my fair share in problems in this world and things aren’t easy as it seems to me. But I have a lot of ways to lighten up myself,, which includes music, writing and long talks with friends.

I therefore conclude in this circumstance that we are all different in every aspects of our lives – that makes us very unique and special. I often say to her… “Kanya-kanya lang yan! Kanya-kanyang bigat at gaan…” The difference is – how do we face each situations in your life- how to deal.. How much faith do you have? To lay back in times of trials and to laugh hard in facing gratefulness in life. We really do have to learn as we live. To embrace life as it is… and not to run away from it. To learn how to give and to take.. to love more.. even if it gives you nothing but hurt..

Haayy.. it’s a great time really.. we didn’t bother even if we still have work the next day.. well, I believe its worth it.. even if its raining outside… at least she… gave me a reason to smile a bit… Thank God!

Currently Playing: Live and Learn by the Cardigans

Fade Away by Sugarfree

Chasing Cars by Snowpatrol

Hand in my Pocket by Alanis Morissette

Hi there! It’s a while.. I could say that I’m really having a great time nowadays… so busy… can’t even take the time to write. Well, its me…

I have a great month… ups and downs and a lot of adventures are coming my way. Everything is happening for a lesson to learn. Great summer.. great vacation…great time… great trials to balance each.

This time I would like to tell about a new friend who happens to be my board mate. As she told me all about her life.. somehow I felt the connecting thread between us. Surprisingly, she is someone who is exactly my opposite. But we have something in common – very common.. alcohol & cigarettes… bwahahaha! We had a 1-on-1 drinking session tonight. I accepted her invitation because I know I need the comfort tonight because I feel so lonesome. She told me a lot of things about herself and I did likewise. The great thing about our talk was when she told me about her own obsessive compulsiveness (now you know why we’re so opposites). How she get so upset whenever changes comes in her way. even in petty things – like for example.. the position of her pillows in her bed.. it should be in the right location – the way she wanted it – and she feels discomfort whenever she failed to position her pillows the way she wanted it. Those little things irritates her.. she worries too much. I said she’s being hard on herself and she admits that. She makes things complicated. And that’s something that she doesn’t like about herself. And she adopts the same attitude even in other important matters in her life. then she concluded that its because of the effects of the painful memories she had from her childhood (I will not elaborate on this part – very long story hehe!) I was amazed when she told me how she envy me. (Whattt??? Hmm.. yes she told me that! But just a bit). She told me that she wish she was like me… carefree.. who doesn’t worry even if my slippers are just scattered beside my bed.. my necklace is just in my bed instead of being on my bag or somewhere (not in my bed!).. my notebooks, books and other reading materials are just in the other side of my bed., instead of being in the bookshelf… my pillows and blanket aren’t neatly placed in my bed when I leave it in the morning… how I laugh eagerly for simple tv commercials that she don’t even notice not until she saw me laughing at it. She envy how light my life can be that I can smile always (well she doesn’t really know me well yet, haha!). I told her I have my fair share in problems in this world and things aren’t easy as it seems to me. But I have a lot of ways to lighten up myself,, which includes music, writing and long talks with friends.

I therefore conclude in this circumstance that we are all different in every aspects of our lives – that makes us very unique and special. I often say to her… “Kanya-kanya lang yan! Kanya-kanyang bigat at gaan…” The difference is – how do we face each situations in your life- how to deal.. How much faith do you have? To lay back in times of trials and to laugh hard in facing gratefulness in life. We really do have to learn as we live. To embrace life as it is… and not to run away from it. To learn how to give and to take.. to love more.. even if it gives you nothing but hurt..

Haayy.. it’s a great time really.. we didn’t bother even if we still have work the next day.. well, I believe its worth it.. even if its raining outside… at least she… gave me a reason to smile a bit… Thank God!

Currently Playing: Live and Learn by the Cardigans

Fade Away by Sugarfree

Chasing Cars by Snowpatrol

Hand in my Pocket by Alanis Morissette