"It's not that I'm anti-social, it's just that I don't like you BIG time!"

I heard this line as an entry to Top 10 Jealous/Envy Quotes from Chico and Delamar in the Morning Rush this morning.

What a perfect timing, this is exactly my stand to a person that I recently knew.
Just as I am aware, I don't envy her or jealous at her, hello??? I just knew her.
But there's something on her that I just simply don't like.
I badly wanted to post this to my FB, Twitter and YM Status,, but I can't coz my friends know about this girl, and I dont want to make a trending posts about her., Im not that bad.
I think thats one of the downside of having everybody know your whatabouts online.
Well, thank goodness I have my Blogger! whew!


Currently Playing: I DO by Lisa Loeb

"Memories are wonderful things if you don't deal with the past." - Celine, Before SunsetI have enough of the past...


Yoko na balikan..

Bawat maling nagawa o nasabi...
Bawat bagay na dapat sinabi pero di nagawa...
Bawat maling pagkakataon...
Bawat masasayang oras at puno ng pag-asa...
Bawat pinangakong hindi naman natupad...
Bawat magagandang bagay na naglaho na
lang nang hindi namamalayan...

Lahat yan nakalipas na - at hindi na babalik pa.
dapat naman na talikuran na...

Kelangan ko nang magsimula ulit at gumawa ng mga bagong mali,
bagong masasayang oras, bagong pag-asa at bagong pangako...

Currently Playing:
Cannonball by Damien Rice

“They all dream of someone who will come along and see in them a real woman—companion, lover, friend. But they all know, from the very first moment of each new encounter that this simply isn’t going to happen. I need to write about love. I need to think and think and write and write about love—otherwise my soul won’t survive.” - Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes


You're the sweetest man I've ever been with.
Though you seem to be just a little boy in the outside but you're more real and matured man inside.

About 2 years ago, you struck me with the friendship you offered me. You seem to find ways to make me happy and entertained during the times that I'm in the middle of emptiness and trying to find my own path again. For some time I saw myself once again being creative. I then noticed how good it feels to be smiling genuinely again.

I know for a fact that you're not free. Still captivated by your ex and a bunch of girls running after you. It's not hard to understand.

I know also that like me, you're longing for something real. I know you'll never gonna ask me. But somehow it entered my mind, and I entertained it and I liked it.

Its not hard to like you. You have this positive aura that gives me warmth, enough to melt my ice. Until one day I felt something true - fear. Fear of being too close. Fear of being careless. Fear of, I assume, falling again. But before I knew it, I was in it. And I hate it.

Like a hot potato, I decided to just drop whatever it is that I'm feeling. I dont wanna change anything between us. I wanna prove myself that I've learned a lot from my previous love story (lamuyan!). And importantly, I dont want to feel the same hurt I felt before.

So I'm sorry if I need to build this wall. Sorry if I'm coward (to the nth time). Sorry if I'm being quiet (I dont trust my stupid mouth anymore), if I'm being cold (nothing new), if I'm being a bitch and uninteresting. I cant help myself, I have to push you away. I know its the best way. It will be just for awhile, til the tingles disappear.

But just so you know,, you're the best part of my ongoing adventure. and I love it, even just the idea of it. :)

Until then., Friends?? Friends!


Currently Playing: Go Your Own Way by The Cranberries, Sweetest Thing by U2, Half of my Heart by John Mayer, Do You Remember by Jay Sean

"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose . . ." - The Little Prince


Why do i have to confine myself to isolation?
Why do I let myself be numb?
Why can't I be open as I was before?
Why do I continue to be cold as ice?

Maybe it's the most convenient way for me to live freely.
I keep my headphones up all day to not welcome any embrace
Do I aim for solitude? Do I long for silence?
Don't I have enough?

Coz I've been through pain. And I promised myself I'll never get to experience it again.
I've realized that i have nobody to take care of myself but me.
But I seem to encounter the same hurt over and over.
Am I not really learning anything at all?

Everytime I get to open up myself with someone, I always get burned.
I always say I'm gonna give myself a chance
But I can't help but build a wall, to refrain myself from being tamed.
Then I would blame 'me' for being in a movie theater alone.

I admit I long for love. But how can I if I don't know it at all?
Or let's say I've forgotten how to.
Half of my heart is not letting go and continuously giving myself a chance - to believe.
I'm trying my best despite the fear.

No more loud music from now on - for me to listen more clearly.
I'll see things more closely as much as I can.
I'll refrain from talking so that others could express themselves freely.
Then I'll let the other half of my heart to realize that I could be loved.


Currently Playing:
Flinch by Alanis Morissette
Half of my heart by John Mayer

feeling like a fool right now...
it's really just the sanest thing, just a sweetest kind of dream...
love is made for fools like me!
damn!
haayyy,, maka ngiti na nga lang! whew!


Currently Playing: Portions of Foxes by Rilo Kiley

There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And It's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news

'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you

'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes

There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
then touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too

And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news

That you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you

If You Asked Me To

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

(But if you asked me to...)

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby

If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...

You can easily make people believe
of who you want to be for them.
“What you see is what is what you get.”
You often tell your friends that.
That’s pretty amazing. How do you do it??

You said you’re stupid, you don''t know a thing.
You said you didn’t mean it.
You said you’re in love when you’re playing.
You said everything that you say is just joke.
I thought I know you, but now, not at all.
So I say now you’re kinda pretentious.

How long will you play tricks with people?
How long will you find comfort from hiding yourself?
I thought you’re real when you’re with me.
I thought you're different,, I believed in you.
Just didn’t expect that.., but yeah, I should’ve known.

Currently Playing:
Go Your Own Way by The Cranberries

Loving you
Isn't the right thing to do
How can I ever change things
That I feel

If I could
Maybe I'd give you my world
How can I
When you won't take it from me

You can go your own way
Go your own way
You can call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way

Tell me why
Everything turned around
Packing up
Shacking up is all you wanna do

If I could
Baby I'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you