"Let the sun shine Let the rivers run away Coz it's a beautiful day now To play now As I close my eyes and pray Lord have mercy on me 'Coz I'm feeling kinda lonely..."

Summer noon, inaawit niya ang kantang ito,, medyo halo-halo na ung lyrics sa dulo, hindi ko na maintindihan. Ang alam ko lang ang cool ng kanta. Paulit-ulit siya, LSS niya raw. Tinanong ko ung title nung song, nagulat siya. "Hindi mo alam tong kantang to? kay Francis M. to!" Sabi ko, "Ha? Di nga, bakit di ko alam?" "Oldskul na to, himala di mo alam.." sagot niya.
Meron akong ilang album ni Sir Francis, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko nakilala ang kantang ito.. ayun na nga, ung nakakuha ako ng file, naging peborit ko narin at nagrarakenrol kami tuwing naalala namin ang kanta.

For almost 2 years now, room mate ko si Joy. Naikwento ko na rin siya ng mga ilang beses gaya rito at dito Madami na rin kaming napagsamahan. Alam na namin ang kwento ng buhay ng isat isa. Marami nang naging palitan ng mga libro at hiraman ng mga accessories. Ipinakilala niya sa kin ang mga barkada niya na ngayon e barkada ko na rin. May mga panahong nagkakatarayan, nagkakamalditahan, pero natututo naman kaming maging mature sa mga oras na kailangang pag-usapan ang mga mali. Mas nakilala ko ang sarili ko dahil sa kanya, dami kasi naming mga pagkakaiba sa point of views pero as time goes on nag-mimeet na rin. Nawitness ko rin ang progress ng relationship niya with her boyfie,, proud naman ako for them kung nasan na sila ngayon.
Kami rin ang naging refuge ng isa't isa tuwing may panget na mga araw. Di ko maipagkakaila, nung makilala ko siya at ung mga kaibigan niya, dun ako talagang sumagad sa kalokohan. Pamurningan drinking sessions for straight nights - the best! Kahit lasing, nasanay na kong bumangon ng maaga at pumasok. I know its bad pero I cant help it.
Pero dahil sa maraming headaches gawa ng hang over, natutunan ko na rin ang salitang 'No Thanks!' Masasabi ko rin naman na naka-quota na ko pagdating sa alak so kaya ko na ngayong tumanggi sa pag-gimik. Sabi nga ng ate ko, bad influence sakin si Joy, na dapat humanap na ko ng ibang room mate, pero for so many reasons,, ayaw ko. Iba kasi ung may kasama ka sa mga up and down moments mo.

Di ako nagsasawang makinig at magpayo sa kanya tuwing may major fights sila ng boyfie niya. Siya naman hindi rin nagsasawang makinig sa mga kwento ko sa love life ko.
Habambuhay kong advice sa kanya: "Hiwalay kung hiwalay! Magkaroon ka naman ng respeto sa sarili mo, hindi ung puro siya nalang!"
Habambuhay niyang advice sakin: "Maybe it's time to move on, marami pang iba dyan, itry mo uli! Ihahanap kita!"
Hahaha! wala rin nasusunod sa mga advice na un.. Isa lang ang rason,, pareho lang kaming nagmamahal at handang gawin ang lahat para dito. Suportahan nalang ng desisyon ang drama namin.
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Biglaan siyang nakagawa ng desisyon.
Kung tutuusin wala namang magagawa. Andyan na e.
Matagal na rin niya pangarap yon kaya masaya rin siya.
Finally!
Masaya ako para sa kanya.
Un nga lang, kailangan niyang umalis.
Major major changes na naman ang drama ko.
Its either umalis ako ng bahay (dahil dodoble ang expenses ko kapag umalis siya) or may pumalit sa kanya.
Mukhang malabo ung huli.. pero sige na.. eto, baka-sakali na!
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Guess I'm okay.. di naman ako masyadong ma-emote ngayon.
Medyo nasanay narin sa pagdating at pag-alis ng mga tao sa paligid ko.
This chapter is about to end.. bagong adventure ulit!
Actually I cant wait!
Im grateful, indeed!

Friends Forever?? Friends Forever!
I'll surely miss you girl.. (sob)


"Let the wind blow Let the wind touch my face I wanna take a little break now Shake now his is what i have to say I feel so fine So fine that it blows my mind..."

Currently Playing: Girl Be Mine by Francis M.

I would like to share to you about a friend.. My room mate.Though we have a lot of differences,, our perceptions and opinions still meet in some point of life.
Last night,, while we're having our one-on-one drinking session..
We talked about our journals and whats written on it. She only started writing on it for only about 2 weeks,, she told me she got it from me.
She showed me her scribblings of whatever is on her mind day by day. I can tell she's good. I told her to start blogging but she said its really not her thing.
I was surprise to read her own "guidelines" or let me say "Guidelines for Survival"?? haha! I have my own version but its in my other journal. Let me just share hers:

* Focus on what you have.
* Don't compare yourself to others.
* Its just money,, you cant bring it to your grave.
* You have your family and loved ones.
* You'll have your own turn.
* 2012 Vision - Live like you're dying! (i told her about it, hehe!)
* God is the one who scheduling things. Just be patient.
* Be positive.

She told me that everytime that she's confused about something, she's reading her guidelines over and over. I wanna read this whenever i will feel dissatisfied. What I like the most is the 5th, "you'll have your own turn!" - yeah, i believe that!

I admit,, im really learning from her even though i have a lot of complains about her (household chores, love problems, etc.).
Despite the differences,, I'm really glad i have her as my room mate and ka-nomo!
Last night was one of our best conversations - Winner!


Currently Playing: Because I Got High by Afroman

"You don't have to be a beer drinker to play darts, but it helps." ~Author Unknown

I'm not an alcoholic.
Maybe im getting there.
Im trying to be happy - I am.
But I heard happiness is just a state of mind-
guess its right.

I wanna drink
I wanna talk
I wanna be heard
I wanna be understood
I wanna sleep
I wanna forget

This will only take for a while,,
till I'm able to figure out what i'm gonna do with my life..


Currently Playing: Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

Hi there! It’s a while.. I could say that I’m really having a great time nowadays… so busy… can’t even take the time to write. Well, its me…

I have a great month… ups and downs and a lot of adventures are coming my way. Everything is happening for a lesson to learn. Great summer.. great vacation…great time… great trials to balance each.

This time I would like to tell about a new friend who happens to be my board mate. As she told me all about her life.. somehow I felt the connecting thread between us. Surprisingly, she is someone who is exactly my opposite. But we have something in common – very common.. alcohol & cigarettes… bwahahaha! We had a 1-on-1 drinking session tonight. I accepted her invitation because I know I need the comfort tonight because I feel so lonesome. She told me a lot of things about herself and I did likewise. The great thing about our talk was when she told me about her own obsessive compulsiveness (now you know why we’re so opposites). How she get so upset whenever changes comes in her way. even in petty things – like for example.. the position of her pillows in her bed.. it should be in the right location – the way she wanted it – and she feels discomfort whenever she failed to position her pillows the way she wanted it. Those little things irritates her.. she worries too much. I said she’s being hard on herself and she admits that. She makes things complicated. And that’s something that she doesn’t like about herself. And she adopts the same attitude even in other important matters in her life. then she concluded that its because of the effects of the painful memories she had from her childhood (I will not elaborate on this part – very long story hehe!) I was amazed when she told me how she envy me. (Whattt??? Hmm.. yes she told me that! But just a bit). She told me that she wish she was like me… carefree.. who doesn’t worry even if my slippers are just scattered beside my bed.. my necklace is just in my bed instead of being on my bag or somewhere (not in my bed!).. my notebooks, books and other reading materials are just in the other side of my bed., instead of being in the bookshelf… my pillows and blanket aren’t neatly placed in my bed when I leave it in the morning… how I laugh eagerly for simple tv commercials that she don’t even notice not until she saw me laughing at it. She envy how light my life can be that I can smile always (well she doesn’t really know me well yet, haha!). I told her I have my fair share in problems in this world and things aren’t easy as it seems to me. But I have a lot of ways to lighten up myself,, which includes music, writing and long talks with friends.

I therefore conclude in this circumstance that we are all different in every aspects of our lives – that makes us very unique and special. I often say to her… “Kanya-kanya lang yan! Kanya-kanyang bigat at gaan…” The difference is – how do we face each situations in your life- how to deal.. How much faith do you have? To lay back in times of trials and to laugh hard in facing gratefulness in life. We really do have to learn as we live. To embrace life as it is… and not to run away from it. To learn how to give and to take.. to love more.. even if it gives you nothing but hurt..

Haayy.. it’s a great time really.. we didn’t bother even if we still have work the next day.. well, I believe its worth it.. even if its raining outside… at least she… gave me a reason to smile a bit… Thank God!

Currently Playing: Live and Learn by the Cardigans

Fade Away by Sugarfree

Chasing Cars by Snowpatrol

Hand in my Pocket by Alanis Morissette