"I spent today outside a funfair, since I can’t afford to fritter my money away, I thought it best to watch other people. I stood for a long time by a roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search of excitement, but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop.
What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn’t they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going around and around and then stop?
At the moment, im far too lonely to think about love, but I have to believe that it will happen, that I will find a job and that I am here because I chose this fate. The roller coaster is my life, life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; its taking chances, falling over and getting up and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don’t manage it.
It isn’t easy being far from my family and from whom the language in which I can express all my feelings and emotions, but, from now on, whenever I feel depressed, I will remember that funfair. If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up in a roller coaster, what would I feel?
Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement." - MAria , Eleven Minutes


>> I'm still alive,, yes I am! Bigger and Better, Bolder and Wiser me,, ready to kick some ass! haha! matagal-tagal rin ang hinintay ko..
Well,, finally... I'M BACK!

“When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself. When I experienced humiliation and total submission, I was free.” - Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

I’ve always been a loser.. maybe thats why i am born in this world, to substantiate what it means to be a winner.
I accepted that fact long time ago and every time I have my encounter with defeat i often say to myself,, “Ah okay,, no big deal!”or “Maiba naman!”.
Whenever i thought that victory is at hand,, I always can’t believe it myself.
As I grow up, I’m learning some good ways to deal with defeat,, either through joke or through a clever remarks.
Enough with the blah blahs.... my aim is not to take sympathy but to be understood.

When it comes to you, I know from the start that I’m gonna lose you like any other things and people that came and went in my life.
I learned a lot from you... I learned to love and not expect anything in return.

Coz in love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. it hurt when i lost the various people in my life. now, though I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.

Well,, for a girl like me,, having you in my life was like winning a consolation prize. And as I embrace my defeat,, i honestly profess that in that short period of time, I was truly happy. :)


a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
- Ecclesiastes 3:2-8

Currently Playing: Over The Rainbow by Jason Castro

I spent today outside a funfair, since I can’t afford to fritter my money away, I thought it best to watch other people. I stood for a long time by a roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search of excitement, but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop.
What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn’t they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going around and around and then stop?
At the moment, im far too lonely to think about love, but I have to believe that it will happen, that I will find a job and that I am here because I chose this fate. The roller coaster is my life, life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; its taking chances, falling over and getting up and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don’t manage it.
It isn’t easy being far from my family and from whom the language in which I can express all my feelings and emotions, but, from now on, whenever I feel depressed, I will remember that funfair. If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up in a roller coaster, what would I feel?
Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement.

>> nice one, isn’t it? that’s my favorite part in the book!